# "I'm Still A Baby Christian" George Janko Gets Honest About Growing in the Spotlight With Lecrae https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvLZahlBsVU Translation: fr [00:02] Some of you know this individual sitting next to me for lots of different reasons. Bazılarınız yanımda oturan bu kişiyi birçok farklı nedenden tanıyor. [00:05] Hey, what's up guys? Welcome back to the George Jenko Show. Selam millet? George Jenko Show'a tekrar hoş geldiniz. [00:07] I'm here with the legend Andrew Tate, Charlie Kirk, Ben Shapiro, Brandon Lake, Cliff, and Stewart. Efsane Andrew Tate, Charlie Kirk, Ben Shapiro, Brandon Lake, Cliff ve Stewart ile birlikteyim. [00:14] And then things shifted. There was some tension. Sonra işler değişti. Bir gerginlik vardı. [00:17] These entertainers are great. It's cool to watch them, but to be around them, you take a piece of their brokenness. Bu eğlenceliler harika. Onları izlemek harika ama onlarla birlikte olmak, onların kırılmışlıklarından bir parça alırsınız. [00:21] I was starting to emulate and act not like Christ. Mesih gibi değil, taklit etmeye ve davranmaya başlıyordum. [00:25] You were on an episode of Girls Gone Bible, and they were like, "Hey, man, your mouth is kind of foul. you want to work on that. Girls Gone Bible'ın bir bölümündeydin ve şöyle dediler: "Hey adamım, ağzın biraz bozuk. Bunun üzerinde çalışmak istiyorsun. [00:30] So, I'm just wondering like how are you now? You have a view on it. Yani, merak ediyorum şimdi nasılsın? Bir fikrin var mı? [00:35] Yeah. So, you say stuff that a lot of people want to say, but they're scared because the internet will destroy them. Evet. Yani, birçok insanın söylemek istediği şeyleri söylüyorsun ama internet onları yok edeceği için korkuyorlar. [00:38] Let's talk about weed. Ot muhabbeti yapalım. [00:42] Yeah. Lovely. And you I don't think people need a perfect person. Evet. Güzel. Ve sen bence insanların mükemmel bir insana ihtiyacı yok. [00:46] I think people need an honest one. Bence insanların dürüst birine ihtiyacı var. [00:47] That's a bar. And you're jumping out doing the show. Bu bir söz. Ve gösteriyi yapıp öne çıkıyorsun. [00:51] You're reaching a ton of Christians, but then you're like, man, I still feel like I'm a baby. Bir sürü Hristiyan'a ulaşıyorsun ama sonra şöyle diyorsun, adamım, hala bir bebek gibi hissediyorum. [00:53] I'm trying to grow right now. What's that process like? Şu anda büyümeye çalışıyorum. Bu süreç nasıl bir şey? [00:56] Feeling like I'm a role model, but I'm still trying to grow at the same time. Bir rol model olduğumu hissediyorum ama aynı zamanda hala büyümeye çalışıyorum. [00:59] Yeah, that's daunting. Evet, bu göz korkutucu. [01:03] the same time. le même temps. [01:03] Yeah, that's daunting. Oui, c'est décourageant. [01:03] This is the deep end with LRAY. C'est le grand bain avec LRAY. [01:09] All right, so uh ladies and gentlemen, Très bien, alors euh mesdames et messieurs, [01:15] All right, so uh ladies and gentlemen, uh some of you know this individual Très bien, alors euh mesdames et messieurs, euh certains d'entre vous connaissent cet individu [01:19] uh some of you know this individual sitting next to me for lots of different euh certains d'entre vous connaissent cet individu assis à côté de moi pour de nombreuses raisons différentes [01:21] sitting next to me for lots of different reasons. assis à côté de moi pour de nombreuses raisons différentes. [01:21] Okay. D'accord. [01:24] Uh but before all of it Euh mais avant tout cela [01:24] reasons. raisons. [01:28] that viral chaos, you got, you know, a couple young hungry creators sitting ce chaos viral, vous avez, vous savez, quelques jeunes créateurs affamés assis [01:31] couple young hungry creators sitting around trying to figure it out. quelques jeunes créateurs affamés assis autour essayant de comprendre. [01:33] around trying to figure it out. autour essayant de comprendre. [01:33] In the middle of that storm, in the middle of Au milieu de cette tempête, au milieu de [01:35] middle of that storm, in the middle of all of it is George Jenko sitting in milieu de cette tempête, au milieu de tout cela se trouve George Jenko assis dans [01:38] all of it is George Jenko sitting in this storm and then things shifted. tout cela se trouve George Jenko assis dans cette tempête et puis les choses ont changé. [01:41] this storm and then things shifted. cette tempête et puis les choses ont changé. [01:41] There was some tension and then you Il y a eu une certaine tension et puis vous [01:44] There was some tension and then you said, "I'mma do my own thing." Il y a eu une certaine tension et puis vous avez dit : « Je vais faire ma propre chose. » [01:46] said, "I'mma do my own thing." dit : « Je vais faire ma propre chose. » [01:46] And then you've been doing your own thing. Et puis vous avez fait votre propre chose. [01:48] you've been doing your own thing. vous avez fait votre propre chose. [01:48] Oh, you met Jesus, too. Oh, vous avez rencontré Jésus aussi. [01:50] you met Jesus, too. vous avez rencontré Jésus aussi. [01:50] That's a big part of it. C'est une grande partie de cela. [01:52] it. cela. [01:52] Uh, and now you've been doing your own thing. Euh, et maintenant vous avez fait votre propre chose. [01:55] own thing. propre chose. [01:55] Um, and it's been going quite well for you. Um, et cela s'est plutôt bien passé pour vous. [01:57] well for you. bien pour vous. [01:57] Thank you. Merci. [01:57] You've been doing a good job doing it your way on Vous avez fait un bon travail en faisant les choses à votre manière sur [01:59] doing a good job doing it your way on your own terms. fait un bon travail en faisant les choses à votre manière selon vos propres termes. [02:02] your own terms. vos propres termes. [02:02] Um, but I'm just curious like how did you get into this world? Um, mais je suis juste curieux de savoir comment vous êtes entré dans ce monde ? [02:05] like how did you get into this world? comment es-tu arrivé dans ce monde ? [02:06] You were talking a little bit earlier about Vine and stuff, like how did you get into like this whole media space? Tu parlais un peu plus tôt de Vine et de tout ça, comment es-tu arrivé dans tout cet espace médiatique ? [02:10] Like what's the story behind that? Quelle est l'histoire derrière ça ? [02:13] Um, when I was younger, I I did music and I did a bunch of acting stuff and I've always wanted to be in the entertainment field. Euh, quand j'étais plus jeune, je faisais de la musique et j'ai fait plein de choses dans le domaine du théâtre et j'ai toujours voulu travailler dans le domaine du divertissement. [02:23] Um, I came out here not for full sale, but there's a actual there's a competitor. Euh, je suis venu ici pas pour une vente complète, mais il y a un vrai concurrent. [02:27] It's called Crass and it's from Arizona. Conservatory of Recording Arts. Il s'appelle Crass et il vient de l'Arizona. Conservatory of Recording Arts. [02:30] Yeah, that's what Biz did actually. Oui, c'est ce que Biz a fait en fait. [02:32] Oh, that's where I went. I think he it's in Arizona. That's what he did. Oh, c'est là où je suis allé. Je pense que c'est en Arizona. C'est ce qu'il a fait. [02:33] Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, I went there and um I did well in school. D'accord. Oui. Oui. Oui. Alors, j'y suis allé et euh j'ai bien réussi à l'école. [02:39] So, they sent me out here for an internship and as I was out here for an internship, it was kind of like a it was like a Disney movie in my mind. Alors, ils m'ont envoyé ici pour un stage et pendant que j'étais ici pour un stage, c'était un peu comme un film de Disney dans ma tête. [02:49] It's like, yeah, I'm going to be in the studio, but at some point they're going to find out I'm a genius and then take me straight to the top. C'est comme, oui, je vais être en studio, mais à un moment donné, ils vont découvrir que je suis un génie et me propulser au sommet. [02:57] Uh unfortunately, that never happened. Malheureusement, cela ne s'est jamais produit. [03:00] Uh, the last day that I had as an intern, um, Justin Bieber walked in and when I was younger, I got to perform at a concert opening up for his stadium Euh, le dernier jour où j'étais stagiaire, euh, Justin Bieber est entré et quand j'étais plus jeune, j'ai pu me produire lors d'un concert en première partie de son stade [03:07] at a concert opening up for his stadium thing for the I believe it was the My World Tour. lors d'un concert en première partie de son truc de stade pour le, je crois que c'était la tournée My World. [03:11] Um, I won like a singing competition with Kiss FM. Euh, j'ai gagné un concours de chant avec Kiss FM. [03:15] And outside of the stadium where they kind of get everybody hyped up before they open it up, I got to perform in front of those kids and uh, I'm just always waiting for my moment. Et à l'extérieur du stade où ils mettent tout le monde dans l'ambiance avant qu'ils n'ouvrent, j'ai pu me produire devant ces enfants et euh, j'attends toujours mon moment. [03:22] And so when I saw him walk in, I was like, "Oh, this is my chance. Et donc quand je l'ai vu entrer, j'ai pensé : "Oh, c'est ma chance. [03:27] This is it. C'est ça. [03:29] I go, I shake his hand. J'y vais, je lui serre la main. [03:30] He goes, "Hey, what's your name?" Il dit : "Hé, quel est ton nom ?" [03:32] I tell him, I show him my music. Je lui dis, je lui montre ma musique. [03:36] My life changes. Ma vie change. [03:37] I walked up to him and the the like, "Hey, hey, hey, what are you doing?" Je me suis approché de lui et ils ont dit : "Hé, hé, hé, qu'est-ce que tu fais ?" [03:39] And I was like, "No, I was going to say hi." Et j'ai dit : "Non, j'allais juste dire bonjour." [03:40] He goes, "No, no, no, no. Il dit : "Non, non, non, non. [03:42] You don't go say hi to Justin Bieber." On ne va pas dire bonjour à Justin Bieber." [03:44] He goes, "You talk to Justin Bieber if somebody's like, "Hey, somebody needs to wipe Justin Bieber's ass. Il dit : "Tu parles à Justin Bieber si quelqu'un dit : "Hé, quelqu'un doit essuyer le cul de Justin Bieber. [03:48] Where's George? That's when we've talked to you." Où est George ? C'est à ce moment-là qu'on te parle." [03:53] And I felt so disrespected. Et je me suis senti tellement irrespecté. [03:54] And now mind you, I never asked for much, but a common courtesy of respect I've always wanted. Et attention, je n'ai jamais demandé grand-chose, mais une courtoisie commune de respect, je l'ai toujours voulu. [03:59] So I was so humiliated and angry. Alors j'étais tellement humilié et en colère. [04:01] I like walked outside and I was a good intern, by the way. J'ai marché dehors et j'étais une bonne stagiaire, d'ailleurs. [04:03] I was the intern that never asked you for parking money. J'étais la stagiaire qui ne te demandait jamais d'argent pour le parking. [04:04] I took care of it. Je m'en suis occupée. [04:06] You know what I mean? Tu vois ce que je veux dire ? [04:07] When I'm getting you your marble reds, like I was Quand je te prenais tes marbles reds, comme j'étais [04:08] getting you your marble reds, like I was a good intern. vous apportant vos rouges de marbre, comme si j'étais une bonne stagiaire. [04:08] And so I went outside. Alors je suis sorti. [04:11] I a good intern. J'étais une bonne stagiaire. [04:11] And so I went outside. Alors je suis sorti. [04:11] I called my dad and I told him everything. J'ai appelé mon père et je lui ai tout dit. [04:13] called my dad and I told him everything. J'ai appelé mon père et je lui ai tout dit. [04:13] My dad goes, "Leave them. Mon père dit : « Laissez-les. [04:15] Do it on your own. Faites-le par vous-même. [04:15] You got this kid." Vous pouvez le faire, mon garçon. » [04:16] Oh, you had one of those parents. Oh, vous aviez un de ces parents. [04:16] My My mom and dad were riders. Ma ma mère et mon père étaient des riders. [04:18] That's what's up. C'est ça qui est bien. [04:18] Just riders, bro. Juste des riders, frère. [04:20] And I was like, "You're right. Et j'ai dit : « Vous avez raison. [04:21] I don't need these guys. Je n'ai pas besoin de ces gens. [04:21] And so I walked in and I quit. Alors je suis entré et j'ai démissionné. [04:23] Uh, and I left and I was working out at the gym. Euh, je suis parti et je m'entraînais à la salle de sport. [04:28] I actually had a terrible week. J'ai en fait passé une semaine terrible. [04:31] I was just got my girlfriend broke up with me. Ma petite amie m'a quitté. [04:35] Uh, just lost my job that I wasn't even getting paid for. Euh, j'ai perdu mon emploi pour lequel je n'étais même pas payé. [04:37] Yep. Ouais. [04:37] Uh, I have no friends. Euh, je n'ai pas d'amis. [04:39] I have no family. Je n'ai pas de famille. [04:41] I have nothing out here. Je n'ai rien ici. [04:43] And every day I would just wake up with faith and I was like, God is going to do something in my life. Et chaque jour je me réveillais avec la foi et je me disais, Dieu va faire quelque chose dans ma vie. [04:45] But one day I was so frustrated. Mais un jour j'étais tellement frustré. [04:48] Uh I got weak and I broke all of my furniture in my house. Euh, je suis devenu faible et j'ai cassé tous mes meubles dans ma maison. [04:51] Like I was so mad. J'étais tellement en colère. [04:55] Like I was just so frustrated cuz I was so lost and confused. J'étais tellement frustré parce que j'étais tellement perdu et confus. [04:58] And by the way, FYI, my my I had like Target furniture. Et au fait, pour information, j'avais des meubles de Target. [05:00] Okay, cool. D'accord, cool. [05:01] So it was like this thing was like 25 bucks. Donc c'était comme si cette chose coûtait environ 25 dollars. [05:04] The thing would break out. La chose se cassait. [05:09] bucks. bucks. [05:09] The thing would break out. La chose éclaterait. [05:11] And and can I tell you what my last straw was? Et et puis-je vous dire quel a été mon dernier recours ? [05:13] Yeah. Ouais. [05:13] I was I made dinner for myself and in a small kitchen. J'étais, j'ai préparé le dîner pour moi-même et dans une petite cuisine. [05:15] I'm not exaggerating. Je n'exagère pas. [05:17] This couch is bigger than that kitchen. Ce canapé est plus grand que cette cuisine. [05:19] Okay. D'accord. [05:19] And so I'm sitting there and I'm cooking and I'm just trying to keep a positive attitude. Et donc je suis assis là et je cuisine et j'essaie juste de garder une attitude positive. [05:22] Positive attitude. Attitude positive. [05:25] I clean up all my plates. Je nettoie toutes mes assiettes. [05:25] I put my pots away. Je range mes casseroles. [05:29] I take my uh my I Dude, I I totally forgot about this. Je prends mon euh mon Je Mec, j'ai complètement oublié ça. [05:31] Actually, this is bringing back a lot of memories. En fait, cela me rappelle beaucoup de souvenirs. [05:33] I put my plate on a Target uh those things you put in front of the TV. J'ai posé mon assiette sur une cible euh ces choses que vous mettez devant la télé. [05:37] Oh, like a TV tray. Oh, comme un plateau télé. [05:39] Yeah, a TV tray thing. Ouais, un truc de plateau télé. [05:41] I put my food on it and it didn't clip. J'ai mis ma nourriture dessus et ça n'a pas clippé. [05:44] So the whole thing fell down and shattered. Alors tout est tombé et s'est brisé. [05:48] And when this broke, I said, "Nah, everything is getting broke." Et quand ça s'est cassé, j'ai dit : « Non, tout va se casser. » [05:50] And I just shattered everything. Et j'ai juste tout brisé. [05:53] I took my TV, I threw stuff at it, I broke my remote, I broke my table. J'ai pris ma télé, j'ai jeté des trucs dessus, j'ai cassé ma télécommande, j'ai cassé ma table. [05:55] And that's all I had to be honest. Et c'est tout ce que j'avais pour être honnête. [05:57] I didn't have too much. Je n'avais pas grand-chose. [05:59] Uh, and I broke everything, those four things. Euh, et j'ai tout cassé, ces quatre choses. [06:00] And I just started sobbing and sobbing. Et j'ai juste commencé à sangloter et à sangloter. [06:02] And I did one of those dramatic when you look in the mirror and Et j'ai fait un de ces trucs dramatiques quand tu te regardes dans le miroir et [06:09] Dramatic when you look in the mirror and you feel bad for yourself. Dramatique quand tu te regardes dans le miroir et que tu te sens mal pour toi-même. [06:10] You know, you feel bad for yourself. Tu sais, tu te sens mal pour toi-même. [06:12] You know, you're looking, you're just like, I don't know about you, but if you look at yourself crying in the mirror, you start crying more cuz you're like, look how pathetic you look, bro. Tu sais, tu te regardes, tu te dis juste, je ne sais pas pour toi, mais si tu te vois pleurer dans le miroir, tu commences à pleurer davantage parce que tu te dis, regarde à quel point tu as l'air pathétique, mec. [06:17] Like, what's wrong with you, dude? Genre, qu'est-ce qui ne va pas chez toi, mec ? [06:19] Yo, you're you like living out a whole movie scene. Yo, tu vis comme toute une scène de film. [06:20] Yeah. Ouais. [06:20] Just so dramatic, dude. Juste tellement dramatique, mec. [06:23] I look in the mirror and I'm just, yo, God, what do you want from me? Je me regarde dans le miroir et je me dis juste, yo, Dieu, qu'est-ce que tu veux de moi ? [06:27] Like, what is it that you want from me? Genre, qu'est-ce que tu veux de moi ? [06:31] And clear as day, I hear in my heart, wash your face, have faith, go to the gym. Et aussi clairement que le jour, j'entends dans mon cœur, lave ton visage, aie foi, va à la salle de sport. [06:37] And there's 20 minutes left at this gym that's next door. Et il reste 20 minutes dans cette salle de sport qui est juste à côté. [06:39] And I was like, "All right." Et j'étais comme, "D'accord." [06:42] So, I wash my face and I just start walking up the street and I'm praising my God, crying, sad, defeated, but I just keep praising God. Alors, je me lave le visage et je commence à marcher dans la rue et je loue mon Dieu, en pleurant, triste, vaincu, mais je continue de louer Dieu. [06:53] And I'm in the gym and I'm stretching and I say, "God, I know there's something around the corner that you're going to you're going to set me up for success." Et je suis à la salle de sport et je m'étire et je dis, "Dieu, je sais qu'il y a quelque chose au coin de la rue pour lequel tu vas me préparer au succès." [07:01] And I'm like, "Yo, that's that kid from the internet like that does like internet skits. Et je suis comme, "Yo, c'est ce gamin d'internet qui fait des sketchs sur internet. [07:05] I don't know his name yet. Je ne connais pas encore son nom. [07:06] I just know him from Facebook at the time. Je le connaissais juste de Facebook à l'époque. [07:08] I didn't even have Vine. Je n'avais même pas Vine. [07:08] I didn't have Instagram. Je n'avais pas Instagram. [07:08] I didn't Je n'avais pas [07:10] Vine. I didn't have Instagram. I didn't Vine. I have nothing. Vigne. Je n'avais pas Instagram. Je n'ai pas fait de Vigne. Je n'ai rien. [07:11] I just had a Vine. I have nothing. J'avais juste une Vigne. Je n'ai rien. [07:13] I just had a Facebook that they used to upload at the best Vine compilation stuff. J'avais juste un Facebook sur lequel ils avaient l'habitude de télécharger les meilleures compilations de Vigne. [07:16] So, I walked up to him and bro, I went into full pitch mode. Alors, je me suis approché de lui et, mec, je suis passé en mode présentation complète. [07:18] I went into full pitch mode. Je suis passé en mode présentation complète. [07:21] Let me tell you, go Justin Bieber. Laissez-moi vous dire, allez Justin Bieber. [07:23] No, I did everything. Non, j'ai tout fait. [07:25] I was like, "Yo, I I perform at Justin Bieber's concert." J'étais comme, "Yo, je me produis au concert de Justin Bieber." [07:27] I go, "You you like music? You should check out my music. I produce." Je dis, "Tu aimes la musique ? Tu devrais écouter ma musique. Je produis." [07:30] And I'm just, bro, I'm just everything you could possibly tell a human being. Et je suis juste, mec, je suis juste tout ce que tu pourrais dire à un être humain. [07:34] I told this guy. J'ai dit à ce gars. [07:36] And then we take a break and we look at each other and I go, "I should get your number." Et puis nous faisons une pause et nous nous regardons et je dis, "Je devrais avoir ton numéro." [07:45] And and he looks at me, he I remember he just goes, "Yeah, okay." Et et il me regarde, je me souviens qu'il dit juste, "Ouais, d'accord." [07:48] And then he gave me his number. Et puis il m'a donné son numéro. [07:50] And I remember getting that number and I was like, "I'm kind of shocked he gave me." Et je me souviens avoir eu ce numéro et j'étais comme, "Je suis un peu choqué qu'il me l'ait donné." [07:53] And years later, we were like, "How'd you give?" Et des années plus tard, nous étions comme, "Comment as-tu donné ?" [07:55] And I was the only one that ever walked up to him and was like, "Yo, give me your number." Et j'étais la seule personne qui s'est jamais approchée de lui et a dit, "Yo, donne-moi ton numéro." [07:58] And he's like, "All right." Et il dit, "D'accord." [08:01] So, uh, a day later he calls me up. Alors, euh, un jour plus tard, il m'appelle. [08:02] He goes, "Yo, we're shooting this video." Il dit, "Yo, nous filmons cette vidéo." [08:04] He called you though. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Il t'a appelé cependant. Ouais. D'accord. Ouais. [08:06] I made a good impression. A desperate one, but I made a good Yeah. Yeah. J'ai fait bonne impression. Une impression désespérée, mais j'ai fait une bonne Ouais. Ouais. [08:08] It worked. And uh he Ça a marché. Et euh il [08:10] a good Yeah. Yeah. It worked. Un bon Oui. Oui. Ça a marché. [08:10] And uh he called me up and he goes, "Hey, I'm shooting this skit with my brother. Et euh il m'a appelé et il a dit : « Hé, je tourne ce sketch avec mon frère. [08:13] It's called Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire." Ça s'appelle Menteur, Menteur, Pantalon en Feu. » [08:16] And basically I thought it was going to be like a in my mind like editing like CGI or something, right? Et en gros, je pensais que ce serait comme dans mon esprit, comme du montage, comme des effets spéciaux ou quelque chose comme ça, n'est-ce pas ? [08:23] Nah. These boys put gasoline on their pants and they would throw matches at each other and then if it went wrong, they jump in the pool to make sure it didn't like. Non. Ces gars ont mis de l'essence sur leur pantalon et se lançaient des allumettes et si ça tournait mal, ils sautaient dans la piscine pour s'assurer que ça ne prenait pas feu. [08:29] So, I'm watching these guys are crazy, dude. Alors, je regarde ces gars, ils sont fous, mec. [08:33] I was like, "Yo, they'll do anything to get these videos to pop." J'étais comme : « Yo, ils feront n'importe quoi pour que ces vidéos marchent. » [08:38] And uh I think that's kind of how my journey started. Et euh je pense que c'est un peu comme ça que mon parcours a commencé. [08:40] I would just tag along and watch them. Je les suivais juste et je les regardais. [08:43] And bro, they were like my brothers in a sense that they weren't just like, "Here, do it." Et frère, ils étaient comme mes frères dans le sens où ils n'étaient pas juste comme : « Tiens, fais-le. » [08:46] They would like counsel me. Ils me conseillaient. [08:49] They'll be like, "Hey, edit it this way. You shouldn't think it this way." Ils disaient : « Hé, monte-le comme ça. Tu ne devrais pas penser comme ça. » [08:52] Like, "Yo, you're trash at music, but you're a great actor." Comme : « Yo, tu es nul en musique, mais tu es un super acteur. » [08:55] He goes, "You should focus on this. Focus on writing." Il a dit : « Tu devrais te concentrer là-dessus. Concentre-toi sur l'écriture. » [09:00] And so they just became my brothers and that's why like throughout all the turbulence we always kind of at least stayed in trust. Et donc ils sont devenus mes frères et c'est pourquoi, malgré toutes les turbulences, nous sommes toujours restés en confiance. [09:04] So what was your what do you feel like how did you fit in? Alors, qu'est-ce que tu ressens, comment tu t'es intégré ? [09:07] Like what was your secret sauce in the mix? Comme, quelle était ta sauce secrète dans tout ça ? [09:09] I think we were Je pense que nous étions [09:11] secret sauce in the mix? La sauce secrète dans le mélange ? [09:16] I think we were all young and we just had such uh a love for entertaining and I was just ready to do anything. Je pense que nous étions tous jeunes et nous avions tellement euh un amour pour le divertissement et j'étais juste prête à tout faire. [09:18] Okay. D'accord. [09:21] And these boys were like super generous to me like super super generous to me with their time, Et ces garçons étaient super généreux avec moi, super super généreux avec moi avec leur temps, [09:23] with their money, with their efforts. avec leur argent, avec leurs efforts. [09:27] Uh, and it was just something I'll never forget it. Euh, et c'était juste quelque chose que je n'oublierai jamais. [09:30] They they re they I listen I believe all my blessings are from God. Ils ils re ils j'écoute je crois que toutes mes bénédictions viennent de Dieu. [09:33] I really do. Je le crois vraiment. [09:35] But I believe that he blesses you through people and it's something I can never replace or say thank you enough for. Mais je crois qu'il te bénit à travers les gens et c'est quelque chose que je ne pourrai jamais remplacer ou remercier assez. [09:38] Uh so I always thank God first for the gift or the giftgiver, right? Euh donc je remercie toujours Dieu d'abord pour le don ou le donateur, n'est-ce pas ? [09:42] And then I thank them for you know being the gift that he gave me. Et puis je les remercie d'être, vous savez, le cadeau qu'il m'a donné. [09:46] Life does not happen bi-weekly. La vie n'arrive pas toutes les deux semaines. [09:48] So why should a payday? Alors pourquoi un jour de paie ? [09:50] The money you earn can be in your hands today with earning. L'argent que vous gagnez peut être dans vos mains aujourd'hui avec Earning. [09:53] Earning is an app that gives you access to your pay as you work up to $150 per day with a max of $750 between paydays. Earning est une application qui vous donne accès à votre salaire au fur et à mesure que vous travaillez jusqu'à 150 $ par jour avec un maximum de 750 $ entre les jours de paie. [09:56] So just download the earning app, verify your paycheck, then access up to $150 a day as you work and leave an optional Alors téléchargez simplement l'application Earning, vérifiez votre fiche de paie, puis accédez jusqu'à 150 $ par jour pendant que vous travaillez et laissez une optionnelle [10:13] day as you work and leave an optional tip. jour en travaillant et laissez un pourboire facultatif. [10:16] Any money you access plus tips are tip. Tout l'argent auquel vous accédez plus les pourboires sont un pourboire. [10:19] Any money you access plus tips are automatically repaid from your next paycheck. Tout l'argent auquel vous accédez plus les pourboires sont automatiquement remboursés sur votre prochain salaire. [10:21] So essentially, if you got to paycheck. Donc, essentiellement, si vous avez dû payer votre salaire. [10:23] So essentially, if you got to pay rent really quick, it's the first of the month, but you don't get your check till the 5th, you can use earning to pay that extra money you got to get paid. Donc, essentiellement, si vous avez dû payer le loyer très rapidement, c'est le premier du mois, mais vous ne recevez votre chèque que le 5, vous pouvez utiliser les gains pour payer cet argent supplémentaire que vous devez recevoir. [10:28] that extra money you got to get paid. cet argent supplémentaire que vous devez recevoir. [10:31] And instead of a fee, just leave a tip. Et au lieu de frais, laissez simplement un pourboire. [10:34] So, there's all sorts of things that you may be able to use this for. Donc, il y a toutes sortes de choses pour lesquelles vous pourriez être en mesure de l'utiliser. [10:36] Maybe you need that new dress immediately, but you don't have your check, or you got an upcoming event, or you need a special night out, or it's date night, and you haven't gotten paid, but you got to make it happen. Peut-être avez-vous besoin de cette nouvelle robe immédiatement, mais vous n'avez pas votre chèque, ou vous avez un événement à venir, ou vous avez besoin d'une soirée spéciale, ou c'est une soirée de rendez-vous, et vous n'avez pas été payé, mais vous devez y arriver. [10:38] Well, earning can be a part of your financial routine. Eh bien, les gains peuvent faire partie de votre routine financière. [10:39] You can join earn's 4 million customers who say things like, "When I think about earning, I think about financial stability, security. Vous pouvez rejoindre les 4 millions de clients d'Earn qui disent des choses comme : « Quand je pense aux gains, je pense à la stabilité financière, à la sécurité. [10:41] It gives me a lot of peace of mind." Cela me donne beaucoup de tranquillité d'esprit. » [10:42] So, download the earning app today. Alors, téléchargez l'application Earn dès aujourd'hui. [10:45] It's e a r n i n. C'est E A R N I N. [10:47] It's in the Google Play or the Apple App Store. C'est sur le Google Play ou l'Apple App Store. [10:49] And when you download the Earning app, type in the deep end with LCRA Et lorsque vous téléchargez l'application Earn, tapez dans le deep end avec LCRA [11:17] app, type in the deep end with LCRA under podcast when you sign up and it'll really help the show. application, tapez "deep end" avec LCRA sous "podcast" lorsque vous vous inscrivez et cela aidera vraiment l'émission. [11:22] Earn is a financial technology company. Earn est une société de technologie financière. [11:24] It's not a bank. Ce n'est pas une banque. [11:25] Cash outs are based upon your available earnings. Les retraits sont basés sur vos gains disponibles. [11:28] Standard cash outs take one to two business days with no mandatory fees. Les retraits standard prennent un à deux jours ouvrables sans frais obligatoires. [11:32] An option to expedite your transfer for a fee and tips are voluntary and don't affect the service. Une option pour accélérer votre transfert moyennant des frais et les pourboires sont volontaires et n'affectent pas le service. [11:39] See the cash out use agreements for details. Voir les accords d'utilisation des retraits pour plus de détails. [11:42] services are not available in all states. les services ne sont pas disponibles dans tous les États. [11:45] Back to the podcast. Retour au podcast. [11:48] So during this time and like stuff is building, it's rising and you're on the show and you're in LA. Donc, pendant ce temps, les choses s'accumulent, ça monte et vous êtes à l'émission et vous êtes à LA. [11:55] It's sin city. C'est la ville du péché. [11:58] It's but you're like people know who you are. Mais les gens savent qui vous êtes. [12:02] Christianity is not like it's not like the main stay here in LA. Le christianisme n'est pas comme le pilier principal ici à LA. [12:05] So how is your walk with God in this time period? Alors, comment est votre marche avec Dieu pendant cette période ? [12:09] like what does that look like? À quoi cela ressemble-t-il ? [12:12] Everybody knew me as the man who loved God. Tout le monde me connaissait comme l'homme qui aimait Dieu. [12:14] Okay. Um but when pressure started coming D'accord. Euh, mais quand la pression a commencé à venir [12:18] Um but when pressure started coming around, uh God wanted to see how far it around, uh God wanted to see how far it could go. Mais quand la pression a commencé à monter, euh Dieu voulait voir jusqu'où cela pouvait aller. [12:25] And so praying before your meal, saying your prayer before bed, and casually staying out of things that you think is bad, but letting go of the sin that you don't think is bad. Et donc prier avant votre repas, dire votre prière avant de vous coucher, et éviter avec désinvolture les choses que vous jugez mauvaises, mais laisser tomber le péché que vous ne jugez pas mauvais. [12:35] I was identifying that I love God, but I also was my own God. Je réalisais que j'aimais Dieu, mais j'étais aussi mon propre Dieu. [12:39] I'm following in my own like footsteps. Je suis mes propres traces. [12:42] And I I I'm I'm measuring my uh my heart with God versus the people around me. Et je mesure mon euh mon cœur avec Dieu par rapport aux gens autour de moi. [12:47] And I don't know if you noticed in LA, it's not the greatest measurement. Et je ne sais pas si vous avez remarqué à LA, ce n'est pas la meilleure mesure. [12:49] No. Non. [12:52] And so, yeah, I think my my relationship started like developing when pressure kind of hit. Et donc, oui, je pense que ma relation a commencé à se développer quand la pression est arrivée. [12:57] And it was kind of like sink or swim. Et c'était un peu comme couler ou nager. [13:00] And at that time, I was just like, "All right, I really need to hang on to something that makes me happy." Et à ce moment-là, je me disais : "D'accord, j'ai vraiment besoin de m'accrocher à quelque chose qui me rend heureux." [13:06] And so, I just started reading Proverbs. Et donc, j'ai juste commencé à lire les Proverbes. [13:08] It's giving me life, but it's also identifying my traits. Cela me donne vie, mais cela identifie aussi mes traits. [13:13] And so, when I'm seeing a wicked man speaks like this or lusts like this or acts like this, Et donc, quand je vois un homme méchant parler comme ça ou convoiter comme ça ou agir comme ça, [13:18] or lusts like this or acts like this, and then so I'm seeing there's two ou des désirs comme ça ou des actes comme ça, et puis je vois qu'il y a deux [13:21] and then so I'm seeing there's two versions of me. et puis je vois qu'il y a deux versions de moi. [13:24] Mh. And then when I read and try to eat more of his words, and Mh. Et puis quand je lis et que j'essaie de manger plus de ses paroles, et [13:27] I'm realizing that I I can't serve two je réalise que je ne peux pas servir deux [13:29] masters. Yeah. Uh, I wasn't a master of money. maîtres. Oui. Euh, je n'étais pas un maître de l'argent. [13:32] I wasn't a master of uh uh fame. Je n'étais pas un maître de euh euh de la célébrité. [13:35] I wasn't uh slaving over any of that stuff. Je ne me suis pas euh asservi à aucune de ces choses. [13:37] Uh I was enslaved with my own ego, not knowing I had it. Euh j'étais asservi par mon propre ego, sans savoir que je l'avais. [13:40] And I think there's a lot of people that fall in this category because I didn't know I Et je pense qu'il y a beaucoup de gens qui tombent dans cette catégorie parce que je ne savais pas que je [13:45] was serving myself until myself failed me and I had nothing else to do besides call out to God. me servais moi-même jusqu'à ce que moi-même m'ait trahi et que je n'aie rien d'autre à faire que d'appeler Dieu. [13:51] And then once I kind of heard his voice, you know, like my children know my voice, I Et puis une fois que j'ai un peu entendu sa voix, vous savez, comme mes enfants connaissent ma voix, je [13:56] think it was that aspect where I'm starting to actually hear his voice and understand that what I was doing was pense que c'est cet aspect où je commence à entendre sa voix et à comprendre que ce que je faisais [13:59] going against my father in certain small ways, sometimes big ways. allait à l'encontre de mon père de certaines petites manières, parfois de grandes manières. [14:02] And so I didn't just like change my life overnight. Et donc je n'ai pas juste changé ma vie du jour au lendemain. [14:03] It was just like, oh, I'll C'était juste comme, oh, je vais [14:18] overnight. dans la nuit. [14:18] It was just like, oh, I'll change this amount. C'était juste comme, oh, je vais changer ce montant. [14:21] And then it's kind of like when you're in a dark room and you let in a little bit of light and then you're like, "Oh, that feels really good." Et puis c'est un peu comme quand vous êtes dans une pièce sombre et que vous laissez entrer un peu de lumière et alors vous vous dites : "Oh, ça fait vraiment du bien." [14:26] It's tough, but it's rewarding. C'est difficile, mais c'est gratifiant. [14:29] Yeah. Ouais. [14:29] And slowly but surely, um, you know, God put me to a test. Et lentement mais sûrement, euh, vous savez, Dieu m'a mis à l'épreuve. [14:35] And I think it was just because I asked God, I want to be close to you. Et je pense que c'était juste parce que j'ai demandé à Dieu, je veux être proche de toi. [14:39] And I think if you ask God, I want to be close to you, he's going to put you into situations that are going to make you need to be close to him. Et je pense que si vous demandez à Dieu, je veux être proche de toi, il va te mettre dans des situations qui vont te faire avoir besoin d'être proche de lui. [14:44] Yeah, for sure. Ouais, c'est sûr. [14:44] Uh, so there was a lot of nights where I cried and wrote out my feelings and read the gospel. Euh, donc il y a eu beaucoup de nuits où j'ai pleuré et écrit mes sentiments et lu l'évangile. [14:55] And I think it was just I caught myself realizing that everything I've ever dreamt, it actually comes with more pain. Et je pense que je me suis rendu compte que tout ce dont j'ai jamais rêvé, cela vient en fait avec plus de douleur. [15:00] Mhm. Mhm. [15:00] And I was scratching my head, how does a kid from Arizona working at Five Guys, how does that guy have abundantly more peace than the kid that has everything he's ever dreamt about? Et je me grattais la tête, comment un gamin d'Arizona qui travaille chez Five Guys, comment ce gars peut-il avoir abondamment plus de paix que le gamin qui a tout ce dont il a jamais rêvé ? [15:12] Yeah. Ouais. [15:12] And I had to take a second and I realized because the kid flipping a piece of patty versus the kid living in Et j'ai dû prendre une seconde et j'ai réalisé parce que le gamin qui retourne une galette contre le gamin qui vit dans [15:20] piece of patty versus the kid living in this dream, this kid flipping a patty. une part de galette contre l'enfant vivant dans ce rêve, cet enfant retournant une galette. [15:23] this dream, this kid flipping a patty would meditate on God and think about God. ce rêve, cet enfant retournant une galette méditerait sur Dieu et penserait à Dieu. [15:25] and ask God, "What do you want from him?" et demanderait à Dieu : « Qu'est-ce que tu veux de lui ? » [15:27] Yeah. This kid was kept telling God, "What could you do for me?" Ouais. Cet enfant n'arrêtait pas de dire à Dieu : « Qu'est-ce que tu pourrais faire pour moi ? » [15:30] Yeah. Ouais. [15:33] And so I felt the difference of separation. Et donc j'ai ressenti la différence de séparation. [15:35] And and I asked God, I said, "Hey, even if you have to remove everything from me, like I want to I want to be closest to you." Et et j'ai demandé à Dieu, j'ai dit : « Hé, même si tu dois tout m'enlever, comme je veux être le plus proche de toi. » [15:39] And when all of the turbulence hit and I lost friends or jobs or whatever I was losing, it wasn't because of my circumstance. Et quand toutes les turbulences ont frappé et que j'ai perdu des amis ou des emplois ou quoi que ce soit que je perdais, ce n'était pas à cause de ma situation. [15:47] It's because God was building a better relationship with me. C'est parce que Dieu construisait une meilleure relation avec moi. [15:53] And uh I'm very grateful for it. Et euh j'en suis très reconnaissant. [15:56] Yeah. Like you said something I think cuz it's kind of interesting. Ouais. Comme vous avez dit quelque chose, je pense, parce que c'est assez intéressant. [15:58] you you're like the kid who's flipping burgers at Five Guys has a a different level of peace. vous vous êtes comme l'enfant qui retourne des hamburgers chez Five Guys a un niveau de paix différent. [16:07] And for a lot of people out there, especially like kids who look at your journey and say, "Oh, shoot. That's the dream. Et pour beaucoup de gens là-bas, surtout des enfants qui regardent votre parcours et disent : « Oh, zut. C'est le rêve. [16:17] Like that's the route I want to go in terms of like I'm going to move to Comme c'est la voie que je veux suivre en termes de je vais déménager à [16:21] go in terms of like I'm going to move to LA. aller en termes de comme je vais déménager à LA. [16:21] I'm going to chase my dream and then LA. Je vais poursuivre mon rêve et ensuite LA. [16:24] I'm going to chase my dream and then I'm going to find satisfaction and I'm going to be so happy. Je vais poursuivre mon rêve et ensuite je vais trouver la satisfaction et je vais être si heureux. [16:27] going to be so happy. être si heureux. [16:27] like you got there in a lot of ways like you you couldn't have been a part of a bigger platform in terms of being on YouTube and and for this generation like that's Hollywood is not just movies it's like YouTube like online is the is like where everything lives you got to the top of the tops in some senses right but then you still found yourself just like what are the things that you're what are the walls you're running into that's helping you to see like this isn't everything I thought it was going to be like what what's happening to where you're like no I need to like I'm reading Proverbs and maybe I shouldn't do this or like what what's going on in that time period. comme tu y es arrivé de bien des manières comme tu n'aurais pas pu faire partie d'une plus grande plateforme en termes d'être sur YouTube et et pour cette génération comme c'est Hollywood n'est pas seulement des films c'est comme YouTube comme en ligne est est comme où tout vit tu es arrivé au sommet des sommets dans un sens d'accord mais alors tu t'es quand même retrouvé juste comme quelles sont les choses que tu es quels sont les murs que tu rencontres qui t'aident à voir comme ce n'est pas tout ce que je pensais que ce serait comme qu'est-ce qui se passe où tu es comme non je dois comme je lis des proverbes et peut-être que je ne devrais pas faire ça ou comme qu'est-ce qui se passe à cette période. [17:09] So my mom and dad very much poured uh their wisdom and peace and knowledge from the gospel into me. Donc ma mère et mon père ont beaucoup versé euh leur sagesse et leur paix et leur connaissance de l'Évangile en moi. [17:14] Yeah. Oui. [17:14] Uh growing up in a church in a community that is acting like Christ or their best Euh grandir dans une église dans une communauté qui agit comme le Christ ou leur mieux [17:22] that is acting like Christ or their best ability to act like Christ, right? que agit comme le Christ ou de leur mieux pour agir comme le Christ, n'est-ce pas ? [17:23] No ability to act like Christ, right? Aucune capacité à agir comme le Christ, n'est-ce pas ? [17:23] No one's perfect. Personne n'est parfait. [17:26] one's perfect. personne n'est parfait. [17:26] Yeah. Ouais. [17:26] Um, Euh, [17:26] there's a difference between who that il y a une différence entre qui [17:28] there's a difference between who that person's going to be versus the person il y a une différence entre qui cette personne sera par rapport à la personne [17:30] person's going to be versus the person that's in a broken city because me and personne sera par rapport à la personne qui est dans une ville brisée parce que moi et [17:33] that's in a broken city because me and you both know that these entertainers est dans une ville brisée parce que toi et moi savons tous les deux que ces artistes [17:35] you both know that these entertainers are great and they're great vous savez tous les deux que ces artistes sont formidables et qu'ils sont formidables [17:36] are great and they're great entertainers, but if you peel the sont formidables et qu'ils sont de grands artistes, mais si vous retirez le [17:37] entertainers, but if you peel the curtain back, the reason why they're artistes, mais si vous retirez le rideau, la raison pour laquelle ils sont [17:39] curtain back, the reason why they're great entertainers is because they're rideau, la raison pour laquelle ils sont de grands artistes est parce qu'ils sont [17:40] great entertainers is because they're entertaining feelings and heartbreaks de grands artistes est parce qu'ils divertissent les sentiments et les chagrins [17:42] entertaining feelings and heartbreaks and situations that we all go through, divertissent les sentiments et les chagrins et les situations que nous traversons tous, [17:45] and situations that we all go through, but at a magnifying level to the point et les situations que nous traversons tous, mais à un niveau de grossissement tel que [17:47] but at a magnifying level to the point where they're artistically sound and mais à un niveau de grossissement tel que leur art est solide et [17:49] where they're artistically sound and explaining it. leur art est solide et l'expliquent. [17:49] Mhm. Mhm. [17:49] And so it's cool to Et donc c'est cool de [17:51] explaining it. l'expliquer. [17:51] Mhm. Mhm. [17:51] And so it's cool to watch them, but to be around them, you Et donc c'est cool de les regarder, mais d'être autour d'eux, vous [17:53] watch them, but to be around them, you take a piece of their brokenness. les regarder, mais d'être autour d'eux, vous prenez un morceau de leur brisement. [17:53] And so Et donc [17:56] take a piece of their brokenness. prenez un morceau de leur brisement. [17:56] And so as a sheep, you are who you hang out Et donc, en tant que mouton, vous êtes qui vous fréquentez [17:58] as a sheep, you are who you hang out with. en tant que mouton, vous êtes qui vous fréquentez. [17:58] And I was starting to emulate and Et je commençais à émuler et [18:01] with. avec. [18:01] And I was starting to emulate and act Et je commençais à émuler et à agir [18:03] act not like Christ. pas comme le Christ. [18:03] And every day I just as Et chaque jour, je me contentais de [18:07] not like Christ. pas comme le Christ. [18:07] And every day I just as a Christian, you feel more alive. Et chaque jour, en tant que chrétien, vous vous sentez plus vivant. [18:09] a Christian, you feel more alive. un chrétien, vous vous sentez plus vivant. [18:09] You kept getting closer to God because Vous vous rapprochiez de Dieu parce que [18:10] kept getting closer to God because you're filling yourself up with his vous vous rapprochiez de Dieu parce que vous vous remplissiez de son [18:12] you're filling yourself up with his spirit. vous vous remplissiez de son esprit. [18:12] When you're walking away, you Quand vous vous éloignez, vous [18:14] spirit. esprit. [18:14] When you're walking away, you actually feel like you're dying. Quand vous vous éloignez, vous avez l'impression de mourir. [18:17] actually feel like you're dying. vous avez l'impression de mourir. [18:17] I mean, Je veux dire, [18:17] I gained so much weight. j'ai pris tellement de poids. [18:20] I was so anxious. j'étais tellement anxieux. [18:20] I was so depressed. j'étais tellement déprimé. [18:20] And I I had Et j'avais [18:23] anxious. Anxieux. [18:23] I was so depressed. J'étais tellement déprimé. [18:23] And I I had a lot of hurdles growing up as a kid, a lot of hurdles growing up as a kid, but I never felt those because Et j'ai j'ai eu beaucoup d'obstacles en grandissant quand j'étais enfant, beaucoup d'obstacles en grandissant quand j'étais enfant, mais je ne les ai jamais ressentis parce que [18:27] but I never felt those because regardless of how chaotic my teachers or the kids at school were or uh anything mais je ne les ai jamais ressentis parce que peu importe à quel point mes professeurs ou les enfants à l'école étaient chaotiques ou euh quoi que ce soit [18:33] the kids at school were or uh anything that was going on in life. les enfants à l'école étaient ou euh quoi que ce soit qui se passait dans la vie. [18:35] When I came back home, my mom and dad made that paradise. Quand je suis rentré à la maison, mes parents en ont fait un paradis. [18:37] paradise. paradis. [18:37] Yeah. Ouais. [18:37] They filled me up with what love was and what honor was. Ils m'ont rempli de ce qu'était l'amour et de ce qu'était l'honneur. [18:42] Mhm. Mhm. [18:42] When I came out here and did it on my own, I was just a parable child. Quand je suis venu ici et que je l'ai fait par moi-même, j'étais juste un enfant parabole. [18:44] I was the kid that's like, I got this. J'étais l'enfant qui dit : J'ai ça. [18:46] God, kick back. Dieu, détends-toi. [18:48] Oh, yeah. Oh, ouais. [18:48] Let me handle it. Laisse-moi gérer ça. [18:50] And as a good father, he's he he did it enough for me not to get devoured by wolves, but to know that out there, it's Et en tant que bon père, il l'a fait assez pour que je ne sois pas dévoré par les loups, mais pour savoir que là-bas, c'est [18:55] wolves, but to know that out there, it's it's better to be next to the shepherd than to be too far away. loups, mais pour savoir que là-bas, il vaut mieux être près du berger que d'être trop loin. [19:00] So, I feel like that's how Donc, j'ai l'impression que c'est comme ça que [19:04] that makes a lot of sense. ça a beaucoup de sens. [19:06] I mean, we I've gotten devoured and and and I got devoured because I was too confident. Je veux dire, j'ai été dévoré et et et j'ai été dévoré parce que j'étais trop confiant. [19:11] Like, I was like, "Oh, yeah, God, I I already know all this stuff." Comme, j'étais comme, "Oh, ouais, Dieu, je je sais déjà tout ça." [19:13] But knowledge is not the same as wisdom. Mais la connaissance n'est pas la même chose que la sagesse. [19:15] So, it's like, "Yeah, I know stuff." Donc, c'est comme, "Ouais, je sais des choses." [19:17] Amen. Amen. [19:17] But I it's not like embedded into who I am as a person. Mais ce n'est pas comme si c'était intégré à qui je suis en tant que personne. [19:20] So then it's kind of like, yeah, I'll be fine. Alors c'est un peu comme, ouais, je vais bien aller. [19:22] I'm just I'm Je suis juste je suis [19:23] like, yeah, I'll be fine. comme, ouais, ça ira. [19:23] I'm just I'm just going over here. Je vais juste, je vais juste aller par ici. [19:24] I'm going to do just going over here. Je vais faire juste aller par ici. [19:24] I'm going to do this. Je vais faire ça. [19:26] It's not going to be a big deal. Ce ne sera pas grave. [19:26] this. ça. [19:26] It's not going to be a big deal. Ce ne sera pas grave. [19:28] That's a strong line you said. C'est une phrase forte que tu as dite. [19:28] Um Euh [19:28] because that's exactly how the devil operates, bro. parce que c'est exactement comme ça que le diable opère, frère. [19:31] Like the devil knows the gospel way way better than us. Comme le diable connaît l'Évangile bien bien mieux que nous. [19:33] operates, bro. opère, frère. [19:33] Like the devil knows the gospel way way better than us. Comme le diable connaît l'Évangile bien bien mieux que nous. [19:36] Way better than us. Bien mieux que nous. [19:36] Uh but wisdom is different. Euh mais la sagesse est différente. [19:39] And in fact, if we're talking about Proverbs, when he writes wisdom, he talks to her as like a beautiful, beautiful lady. Et en fait, si nous parlons des Proverbes, quand il écrit la sagesse, il lui parle comme à une belle, belle dame. [19:41] like one of his first creations. comme une de ses premières créations. [19:43] And so I I kind of come with wisdom as as as if it's delicate and something to really like pamper and take care of and love because we always think about our finance. Et donc j'aborde la sagesse comme si elle était délicate et quelque chose à vraiment dorloter et à prendre soin et à aimer parce que nous pensons toujours à nos finances. [19:46] We always think about our fitness. Nous pensons toujours à notre forme physique. [19:47] We think about our well-being. Nous pensons à notre bien-être. [19:51] Um right now I'm in a stage where I'm actually starting to go to the gym and eat better. Euh en ce moment, je suis dans une phase où je commence à aller à la salle de sport et à manger mieux. [19:54] But the first thing I had to rope in, my heart was screaming is my spirit. Mais la première chose que j'ai dû intégrer, mon cœur criait, c'est mon esprit. [19:56] My spirit needs to be fed. Mon esprit a besoin d'être nourri. [19:59] Yep. Ouais. [19:59] Yep. Ouais. [19:59] Soon as my fe my spirit was fed, the second was my mind. Dès que mon esprit a été nourri, le deuxième a été mon esprit. [20:00] Started reading books, started asking questions. J'ai commencé à lire des livres, à poser des questions. [20:02] Yeah. Ouais. [20:02] Starting to realize that, oh, if I keep these two commandments, love my God Je commence à réaliser que, oh, si je garde ces deux commandements, aimer mon Dieu [20:25] keep these two commandments, love my God with all my heart and love my neighbor, [20:27] with all my heart and love my neighbor, praise my God, I'll be good. I get I [20:29] praise my God, I'll be good. I get I just keep moving. And then now it's the [20:31] just keep moving. And then now it's the body. Now I'm at the point in my life [20:33] body. Now I'm at the point in my life where I'm like, "All right, I got to go [20:34] where I'm like, "All right, I got to go to the gym every day because there's a [20:35] to the gym every day because there's a real God living inside of me." And I [20:38] real God living inside of me." And I want to give him a good home and so that [20:40] want to give him a good home and so that way he could thrive in me so I could [20:41] way he could thrive in me so I could then do his work on this earth. I love [20:44] then do his work on this earth. I love that. I love that. fully integrated like [20:46] that. I love that. fully integrated like we're mind, body, spirit, like all [20:48] we're mind, body, spirit, like all working together. I'm just trying to [20:50] working together. I'm just trying to submit as best as I can. Yeah. No, I I [20:52] submit as best as I can. Yeah. No, I I think that's that's where we all need to [20:54] think that's that's where we all need to move to. Hey, listen. I hope you guys [20:56] move to. Hey, listen. I hope you guys enjoyed this episode of The Deep End. [20:58] enjoyed this episode of The Deep End. This episode is brought to you by the [21:00] This episode is brought to you by the Amazing Life Foundation, and I've worked [21:02] Amazing Life Foundation, and I've worked with this team for over a year now. [21:05] with this team for over a year now. They've helped me produce this show [21:06] They've helped me produce this show since the beginning. Amazing Life's [21:08] since the beginning. Amazing Life's mission is to help people grow and [21:10] mission is to help people grow and flourish through high quality content. [21:13] flourish through high quality content. and I just want to thank them for making [21:15] and I just want to thank them for making this show possible. Now, back to the [21:17] this show possible. Now, back to the podcast. Um, so if I hit the fast [21:20] podcast. Um, so if I hit the fast forward [21:21] forward button, I appreciate you sharing that, [21:23] button, I appreciate you sharing that, too. Like, you you you endure the [21:26] too. Like, you you you endure the turmoil. I I think I stopped having [21:30] turmoil. I I think I stopped having problems with people when I stopped [21:31] problems with people when I stopped assuming what they thought. I I don't [21:34] assuming what they thought. I I don't think it's my job to understand how they [21:36] think it's my job to understand how they feel or how they operate or your [21:37] feel or how they operate or your business if it's negative. Yeah. And [21:39] business if it's negative. Yeah. And even if it's towards me, you know, um if [21:41] even if it's towards me, you know, um if it's negative, I'm I know a lot of [21:42] it's negative, I'm I know a lot of people felt a certain way the way that [21:44] people felt a certain way the way that they talked to me or handled. But again, [21:46] they talked to me or handled. But again, it's like I don't know what I did to his [21:48] it's like I don't know what I did to his heart or I don't know what my perspect [21:50] heart or I don't know what my perspect like uh his perception of me was. Like [21:53] like uh his perception of me was. Like maybe he thought I was just being [21:54] maybe he thought I was just being arrogant cuz remember I was still acting [21:56] arrogant cuz remember I was still acting like a hooligan. So how much could a man [21:58] like a hooligan. So how much could a man listen to a man preach about God when [22:00] listen to a man preach about God when you're acting like a hooligan? Yeah. So [22:02] you're acting like a hooligan? Yeah. So that might rub somebody the wrong way or [22:03] that might rub somebody the wrong way or get irritating. So, I've been there. I I [22:06] get irritating. So, I've been there. I I understand um that being persecuted is [22:10] understand um that being persecuted is part of the journey of being with [22:12] part of the journey of being with Christ, but letting it affect you [22:14] Christ, but letting it affect you doesn't have to be. That's good. That's [22:16] doesn't have to be. That's good. That's maturity. Cuz a lot of I'm telling you [22:18] maturity. Cuz a lot of I'm telling you that's growth and maturity. Cuz cuz a [22:20] that's growth and maturity. Cuz cuz a lot of times we want to hold [22:22] lot of times we want to hold like grudges instead of seeing like how [22:24] like grudges instead of seeing like how God is using it all. It's not like God [22:26] God is using it all. It's not like God was surprised like, "Oh, I didn't know [22:27] was surprised like, "Oh, I didn't know that was going to happen." And God's [22:29] that was going to happen." And God's like, "It's exactly what I I you're [22:31] like, "It's exactly what I I you're becoming exactly who I want you to [22:32] becoming exactly who I want you to become, and I'm using all this stuff to [22:34] become, and I'm using all this stuff to make you into that person." So, I [22:36] make you into that person." So, I appreciate that. Yeah. I I think [22:39] appreciate that. Yeah. I I think um I was bitter in the beginning. Um I [22:42] um I was bitter in the beginning. Um I was angry until [22:45] was angry until when I'm walking with God, it's kind of [22:47] when I'm walking with God, it's kind of like when you're walking with such a [22:49] like when you're walking with such a beautiful bright light, you start not [22:51] beautiful bright light, you start not only understanding what's around you, [22:54] only understanding what's around you, but the closer you are, the brighter it [22:55] but the closer you are, the brighter it gets. M and when the sun's out, you [22:57] gets. M and when the sun's out, you could see miles away. Yeah. And so when [23:01] could see miles away. Yeah. And so when that aspect in my life came in, the the [23:05] that aspect in my life came in, the the thing that I learned that gave me a [23:06] thing that I learned that gave me a great amount of peace was be so so quick [23:09] great amount of peace was be so so quick to forgive them. Be so so quick. Because [23:13] to forgive them. Be so so quick. Because there were so many times that I would [23:16] there were so many times that I would curse at my best friend or get angry at [23:18] curse at my best friend or get angry at my best friend, but then forgive me God, [23:21] my best friend, but then forgive me God, I would curse out or disrespect through [23:24] I would curse out or disrespect through my actions. God even worse. Yeah. And uh [23:28] my actions. God even worse. Yeah. And uh one day I was praying in a in a very [23:32] one day I was praying in a in a very shallow prayer like God, I can't wait [23:34] shallow prayer like God, I can't wait for you to deal with him, you know, like [23:35] for you to deal with him, you know, like yeah, you're going to show up and avenge [23:37] yeah, you're going to show up and avenge me, you know? Yeah. And [23:40] uh I just I think it was in that prayer [23:43] uh I just I think it was in that prayer where he was like, "Imagine if I had [23:44] where he was like, "Imagine if I had that relationship with you. You wouldn't [23:47] that relationship with you. You wouldn't make it one second." And I think that [23:49] make it one second." And I think that there was this arrogance to me that I [23:51] there was this arrogance to me that I was like, "I did nothing wrong." Yeah. I [23:54] was like, "I did nothing wrong." Yeah. I need this to be like solved. And [23:57] need this to be like solved. And uh again, I'm very grateful because I [24:01] uh again, I'm very grateful because I think there's a lot of pain people get [24:04] think there's a lot of pain people get that they don't know about when they [24:06] that they don't know about when they judge. Mhm. I think forgiveness is a lot [24:09] judge. Mhm. I think forgiveness is a lot more for you than it is for them. Y it's [24:13] more for you than it is for them. Y it's it's re you I I joke around with my [24:15] it's re you I I joke around with my wife. I said, "Being a good person is [24:17] wife. I said, "Being a good person is cool if you're good." I go, "But being a [24:19] cool if you're good." I go, "But being a good person, when you're in a position [24:20] good person, when you're in a position to be evil, that's when God's looking to [24:23] to be evil, that's when God's looking to see if you're if you're marinating in [24:25] see if you're if you're marinating in his words." Yeah. Um, now that's good, [24:27] his words." Yeah. Um, now that's good, man. That's funny. Similarly, it's funny [24:30] man. That's funny. Similarly, it's funny like my best friend, when I started [24:33] like my best friend, when I started walking with God, we did a whole bunch [24:35] walking with God, we did a whole bunch of stupid stuff together before, but [24:37] of stupid stuff together before, but then when I started walking with [24:40] then when I started walking with God, I was real judgmental. like really [24:44] God, I was real judgmental. like really like ooh I hope you know God's going to [24:46] like ooh I hope you know God's going to do this to you cuz you're doing all this [24:48] do this to you cuz you're doing all this crazy stuff. And uh well not at first at [24:50] crazy stuff. And uh well not at first at first I just beat him over the head with [24:52] first I just beat him over the head with the Bible all the time. Yeah. And uh I [24:54] the Bible all the time. Yeah. And uh I would send I would like I would like [24:57] would send I would like I would like send him scriptures and I would email [24:59] send him scriptures and I would email him like stuff too. And then one day he [25:02] him like stuff too. And then one day he sends me this email and I open it up and [25:05] sends me this email and I open it up and it's a virus and he's just like yo like [25:08] it's a virus and he's just like yo like I'm tired of you. So he put a virus on [25:11] I'm tired of you. So he put a virus on my computer. Yeah. He sent you a virus. [25:13] my computer. Yeah. He sent you a virus. sent me a virus [25:15] sent me a virus cuz he was just like, "Bro, I first of [25:17] cuz he was just like, "Bro, I first of all, where did he get a virus?" I don't [25:18] all, where did he get a virus?" I don't know how he did it. He was He's a little [25:20] know how he did it. He was He's a little bit of a nerd like that, but he was just [25:22] bit of a nerd like that, but he was just like, "That's a wrong dude to pick on." [25:24] like, "That's a wrong dude to pick on." Yeah. He's like, "You you you're just [25:26] Yeah. He's like, "You you you're just always judging me. You're sending me [25:28] always judging me. You're sending me these like verses about I'm going to go [25:29] these like verses about I'm going to go to hell and all this stuff." And it's [25:31] to hell and all this stuff." And it's just like And then I learned years later [25:34] just like And then I learned years later to just love him well. And then we just [25:36] to just love him well. And then we just became like friends again and developed [25:38] became like friends again and developed like a loving relationship. And you [25:40] like a loving relationship. And you know, he's not a Christian, but he's he [25:42] know, he's not a Christian, but he's he respects me more because he's like, [25:44] respects me more because he's like, "Okay, you're consistent." So, I can [25:46] "Okay, you're consistent." So, I can totally see that. Um, I'm I'm curious, [25:50] totally see that. Um, I'm I'm curious, too, like when you step out and you got [25:53] too, like when you step out and you got your own show now, [25:56] your own show now, like what's that like? Is it fear? Is it [26:00] like what's that like? Is it fear? Is it excitement? Is it like, "This is going [26:02] excitement? Is it like, "This is going to work. I'm going to show everybody." [26:04] to work. I'm going to show everybody." Is it like, "I hope this works. I don't [26:06] Is it like, "I hope this works. I don't know how this is going to go." Like, [26:07] know how this is going to go." Like, what are you [26:09] what are you so much in my mind. I was wanting to [26:12] so much in my mind. I was wanting to propose to my girlfriend at the time, [26:14] propose to my girlfriend at the time, but when that happened, I was like, "Oh, [26:16] but when that happened, I was like, "Oh, I don't got the money no more." I went [26:17] I don't got the money no more." I went from like, "Yo, we're mad chill. Hey, [26:19] from like, "Yo, we're mad chill. Hey, yo, I got the bill." To like, "Yo, I [26:21] yo, I got the bill." To like, "Yo, I don't know how next month we're paying [26:22] don't know how next month we're paying rent." You know what I mean? Like, so I [26:25] rent." You know what I mean? Like, so I think the one thing was like, "Oh man, [26:27] think the one thing was like, "Oh man, like financially, I think this is why [26:29] like financially, I think this is why God says that money could be their God, [26:31] God says that money could be their God, right? Cuz you're like, we believe in [26:34] right? Cuz you're like, we believe in God, but we also really believe that [26:36] God, but we also really believe that this transaction of money is going to [26:37] this transaction of money is going to handle it, right? And so, [26:40] handle it, right? And so, uh, I kind of got so defeated that I [26:43] uh, I kind of got so defeated that I just like wanted to quit, but I didn't [26:44] just like wanted to quit, but I didn't want to quit. And so, I said, "Hey, God, [26:47] want to quit. And so, I said, "Hey, God, like, I'm going to go this direction. If [26:50] like, I'm going to go this direction. If it pleases you, bless it." And he [26:52] it pleases you, bless it." And he blessed it. And so, we had this jump. We [26:56] blessed it. And so, we had this jump. We had a great foundation to start our [26:59] had a great foundation to start our podcast. But you were talking about like [27:03] podcast. But you were talking about like you're trying to reestablish and like [27:05] you're trying to reestablish and like grow in your journey with the Lord and [27:08] grow in your journey with the Lord and now you're jumping out doing this show. [27:10] now you're jumping out doing this show. It takes off and now you've got this [27:14] It takes off and now you've got this this show where you're reaching a ton of [27:17] this show where you're reaching a ton of Christians, but then you're like, man, I [27:19] Christians, but then you're like, man, I still feel like I'm a baby. I'm trying [27:21] still feel like I'm a baby. I'm trying to grow right now. Yeah, that's [27:23] to grow right now. Yeah, that's daunting. That's what I was going to I [27:24] daunting. That's what I was going to I was wondering like does that does that [27:26] was wondering like does that does that feel like what's that process like [27:28] feel like what's that process like feeling like I'm a role model but I'm [27:31] feeling like I'm a role model but I'm still trying to grow at the same time. [27:33] still trying to grow at the same time. We just uh Celsius is one of my biggest [27:36] We just uh Celsius is one of my biggest sponsors. Okay. And uh I love Celsius. [27:39] sponsors. Okay. And uh I love Celsius. Shout out even like regardless even if [27:41] Shout out even like regardless even if we don't work together in the future, [27:43] we don't work together in the future, God willing we work forever. But they [27:46] God willing we work forever. But they believed in me from the jump and they [27:48] believed in me from the jump and they were the one that wrote the check [27:49] were the one that wrote the check saying, "Hey, that was the bag that God [27:52] saying, "Hey, that was the bag that God put in my lap to help me float." Wow. If [27:54] put in my lap to help me float." Wow. If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't I would [27:56] it wasn't for that, I wouldn't I would have been back in Arizona. Yeah. And [28:00] have been back in Arizona. Yeah. And uh when we gave them our an like our [28:03] uh when we gave them our an like our analytics for the year of what the [28:05] analytics for the year of what the eyeballs we've given the can of Celsius, [28:08] eyeballs we've given the can of Celsius, it was over a billion views. [28:10] it was over a billion views. uh from clips to podcast to streams also [28:14] uh from clips to podcast to streams also including people's reposts. There were [28:16] including people's reposts. There were so many clips that had like a million [28:18] so many clips that had like a million likes, not a million views, like a [28:20] likes, not a million views, like a million likes of me talking or crying to [28:23] million likes of me talking or crying to Cliff or doing all these things. [28:25] Cliff or doing all these things. And I guess the reason why it's not too [28:28] And I guess the reason why it's not too daunting is because I'm an I I like to [28:31] daunting is because I'm an I I like to be as honest as possible. I think if I [28:33] be as honest as possible. I think if I put everything on the table that as long [28:35] put everything on the table that as long as God knows I'm accountable, then I'm [28:37] as God knows I'm accountable, then I'm fine. If people want to u judge me or [28:40] fine. If people want to u judge me or misplace where I'm going with things, [28:42] misplace where I'm going with things, that's between them and God. But what [28:44] that's between them and God. But what I'm doing between me and God is I am a [28:47] I'm doing between me and God is I am a kid that's actively learning and I'm [28:49] kid that's actively learning and I'm sitting on a couch and I'm asking [28:50] sitting on a couch and I'm asking questions. If you want to learn from me, [28:52] questions. If you want to learn from me, great. But I also say learn from my [28:54] great. But I also say learn from my teacher and that's Christ. I have a [28:57] teacher and that's Christ. I have a bunch of mentors. [28:58] bunch of mentors. I have a bunch of people that I look up [29:00] I have a bunch of people that I look up to. I I learn from. I read books. I I [29:03] to. I I learn from. I read books. I I have these conversations. So, the reason [29:05] have these conversations. So, the reason why it doesn't affect me too much is [29:07] why it doesn't affect me too much is because I put it out there saying that [29:08] because I put it out there saying that like, hey, like I'm not one to pick up [29:11] like, hey, like I'm not one to pick up your cross and follow after. Mhm. I'm [29:13] your cross and follow after. Mhm. I'm picking up my cross and trying my best [29:15] picking up my cross and trying my best to follow after the one teacher. You [29:17] to follow after the one teacher. You shouldn't be having your eyes on me. If [29:19] shouldn't be having your eyes on me. If you need it as a motivation or like [29:21] you need it as a motivation or like maybe you want something to listen to or [29:24] maybe you want something to listen to or just to hang out like we're boys and you [29:26] just to hang out like we're boys and you look at me as your friend and we're like [29:27] look at me as your friend and we're like growing together, then that's sick. But [29:29] growing together, then that's sick. But if you're looking at me as a teacher, [29:31] if you're looking at me as a teacher, I'm telling you as myself, that's not a [29:33] I'm telling you as myself, that's not a good idea because I'm actively changing [29:35] good idea because I'm actively changing my mind. I'm actively growing. I'm [29:37] my mind. I'm actively growing. I'm actively curving. I think one day if I [29:40] actively curving. I think one day if I ever do become a teacher, I think it's [29:42] ever do become a teacher, I think it's going to be pretty clear. The Holy [29:44] going to be pretty clear. The Holy Spirit will let me know like, "Hey, it's [29:45] Spirit will let me know like, "Hey, it's time for you to go preach." But right [29:47] time for you to go preach." But right now, I I listen to God's words more than [29:50] now, I I listen to God's words more than mine. And God makes it very clear if [29:52] mine. And God makes it very clear if you're a new person in the faith, don't [29:54] you're a new person in the faith, don't preach because you're going to be [29:56] preach because you're going to be quarrelome. For example, what do we do [29:58] quarrelome. For example, what do we do when we first learn God? We wield it and [30:01] when we first learn God? We wield it and we just start judging everybody around [30:02] we just start judging everybody around us. That was me. And I'm And it's funny [30:04] us. That was me. And I'm And it's funny cuz you get to see it on the podcast. [30:06] cuz you get to see it on the podcast. I'll go watch the episode what I did [30:08] I'll go watch the episode what I did with Mike and I watch back and I can't [30:09] with Mike and I watch back and I can't even I have to pause it every two [30:11] even I have to pause it every two seconds and close my ears and eyes cuz [30:13] seconds and close my ears and eyes cuz when I'm watching my arrogant self speak [30:15] when I'm watching my arrogant self speak and talk, bro, I just did it again on [30:17] and talk, bro, I just did it again on the Avengers episode. I had an episode [30:19] the Avengers episode. I had an episode with the Avengers. Um, and like an [30:22] with the Avengers. Um, and like an arrogant buffoon, I'm speaking and not [30:24] arrogant buffoon, I'm speaking and not being able to express myself in a [30:26] being able to express myself in a loving, compassionate way. And it's not, [30:28] loving, compassionate way. And it's not, it's always the problem. It's not what [30:29] it's always the problem. It's not what I'm saying. It's how I'm saying it. [30:30] I'm saying. It's how I'm saying it. Yeah. And, and I've learned very clear [30:33] Yeah. And, and I've learned very clear that God's like, "Hey, like if you want [30:35] that God's like, "Hey, like if you want me to go with you, before you, around [30:37] me to go with you, before you, around you, and fill you up with the spirit, [30:39] you, and fill you up with the spirit, you have to behave like me. And if [30:40] you have to behave like me. And if you're going to behave like Satan, then [30:42] you're going to behave like Satan, then you're going to get what he gets. You're [30:44] you're going to get what he gets. You're not going to get what I get. because I [30:45] not going to get what I get. because I can't let you sit on a couch and [30:47] can't let you sit on a couch and represent him and then I'm going to give [30:49] represent him and then I'm going to give you my fruits. That's not how it works. [30:51] you my fruits. That's not how it works. So if you don't want to dance with [30:53] So if you don't want to dance with anxiety and you don't want to dance with [30:54] anxiety and you don't want to dance with depression, then don't dance with the [30:56] depression, then don't dance with the man who causes them. So, so, so you're I [30:59] man who causes them. So, so, so you're I I guess what you would say is like, hey, [31:01] I guess what you would say is like, hey, I'm in process. If you want to be in [31:03] I'm in process. If you want to be in process with me, come along for the [31:05] process with me, come along for the ride. But I'm not I'm not saying I have [31:07] ride. But I'm not I'm not saying I have the answers. I'm saying I'm seeking them [31:10] the answers. I'm saying I'm seeking them actively. My my mom was a hairdresser [31:12] actively. My my mom was a hairdresser and when she was cutting people's hair, [31:14] and when she was cutting people's hair, she was the greatest therapist because [31:16] she was the greatest therapist because they would weep in her chair and talk [31:18] they would weep in her chair and talk about their relationships. Like women [31:20] about their relationships. Like women would want to leave their husbands and [31:22] would want to leave their husbands and she would sit there and preach the word [31:23] she would sit there and preach the word of God over them. 5 years later, they're [31:26] of God over them. 5 years later, they're still together. They have kids. She's a [31:28] still together. They have kids. She's a better wife. He's a better husband. Cuz [31:30] better wife. He's a better husband. Cuz when she's cutting their hair, she's [31:32] when she's cutting their hair, she's giving them the wisdom that God wants [31:34] giving them the wisdom that God wants them to have, but also says, "Hey, you [31:37] them to have, but also says, "Hey, you should look into Christ." And then she [31:38] should look into Christ." And then she would pray over them. and she taught me [31:41] would pray over them. and she taught me that it doesn't matter what skill set [31:42] that it doesn't matter what skill set you have, honor it, using it, and [31:45] you have, honor it, using it, and wielding it for the kingdom. So, I think [31:47] wielding it for the kingdom. So, I think of myself as a dude that knows how to [31:49] of myself as a dude that knows how to talk. And also, I'm pretty funny, so [31:51] talk. And also, I'm pretty funny, so I'll go on stages and tell jokes. So, [31:53] I'll go on stages and tell jokes. So, when I look at myself, I don't look at [31:54] when I look at myself, I don't look at myself as a teacher. I look at myself as [31:56] myself as a teacher. I look at myself as a podcast or comic, this 32-year-old kid [31:59] a podcast or comic, this 32-year-old kid who just got married, who's having fun, [32:01] who just got married, who's having fun, who's learning. Yeah. If somebody else [32:03] who's learning. Yeah. If somebody else is looking at me like a heretic or [32:05] is looking at me like a heretic or somebody like is upset with the way I'm [32:08] somebody like is upset with the way I'm preaching and all this stuff, it's like [32:10] preaching and all this stuff, it's like it used to affect my heart. But then [32:12] it used to affect my heart. But then again, it's like I can't get mad at them [32:15] again, it's like I can't get mad at them because there's times that I look at [32:16] because there's times that I look at myself and I hate myself. So I can't get [32:19] myself and I hate myself. So I can't get mad at them for hating me at times when [32:20] mad at them for hating me at times when I hate myself at times. So what I do is [32:22] I hate myself at times. So what I do is I just this is the best thing and I've [32:25] I just this is the best thing and I've been doing this recently. It's zoom out. [32:27] been doing this recently. It's zoom out. It has nothing to do with me. M if they [32:30] It has nothing to do with me. M if they hate me right now, then they have their [32:31] hate me right now, then they have their reasons. I'm just going to stop worrying [32:33] reasons. I'm just going to stop worrying about me and worry about him and do the [32:36] about me and worry about him and do the best that I can to serve him and he'll [32:38] best that I can to serve him and he'll correct my steps. The Lord says that a [32:40] correct my steps. The Lord says that a man plans it in his hearts, but the Lord [32:42] man plans it in his hearts, but the Lord directs his step. And I gave him my [32:44] directs his step. And I gave him my body. So if I do anything wicked in the [32:47] body. So if I do anything wicked in the world, I I just have such confidence [32:49] world, I I just have such confidence that God's going to use it like he did [32:51] that God's going to use it like he did Paul and turn my heart and then and then [32:54] Paul and turn my heart and then and then I'd get on the podcast, hey guys, I'm [32:55] I'd get on the podcast, hey guys, I'm sorry. You know, I said this, I didn't [32:57] sorry. You know, I said this, I didn't mean it. Yeah. And I don't think people [32:59] mean it. Yeah. And I don't think people need a perfect person. I think people [33:01] need a perfect person. I think people need an honest one. That's a That's a [33:03] need an honest one. That's a That's a bar. That's a quote right there. I don't [33:06] bar. That's a quote right there. I don't think they need a perfect person. E [33:07] think they need a perfect person. E honest one. I think you're honest. [33:10] honest one. I think you're honest. Um but like who who would you say your [33:14] Um but like who who would you say your your show is for? Like who when you're [33:17] your show is for? Like who when you're when you're thinking of people who are [33:19] when you're thinking of people who are watching it, like is there like who's [33:21] watching it, like is there like who's the show for? Who do you hope it to [33:24] the show for? Who do you hope it to connect with? [33:26] connect with? You know, it's funny like I I would [33:29] You know, it's funny like I I would picture me growing up because me growing [33:31] picture me growing up because me growing up I like I had a few group of friends, [33:35] up I like I had a few group of friends, but I also didn't really [33:37] but I also didn't really know too much of what I wanted and [33:40] know too much of what I wanted and learned. And so I I always wanted a [33:42] learned. And so I I always wanted a friend with me that just reflected super [33:45] friend with me that just reflected super hard on things. Mhm. I think when two [33:48] hard on things. Mhm. I think when two friends gather and they just think, you [33:49] friends gather and they just think, you know those moments where you're and I [33:51] know those moments where you're and I don't mean to be disrespectful, this is [33:52] don't mean to be disrespectful, this is just like a real thing. Yeah. But like [33:54] just like a real thing. Yeah. But like when like when you're younger and you're [33:56] when like when you're younger and you're smoking with your friend and you're [33:58] smoking with your friend and you're getting really deep with him, yeah, [34:00] getting really deep with him, yeah, you're you're doing stupid things and [34:01] you're you're doing stupid things and yeah, it's not right. I'm not pushing [34:04] yeah, it's not right. I'm not pushing that narrative. But that moment where [34:06] that narrative. But that moment where you guys are sitting and really thinking [34:08] you guys are sitting and really thinking about something deep together, it grows [34:10] about something deep together, it grows a bond between you and that person. Even [34:13] a bond between you and that person. Even if you're in a dark place or even if [34:14] if you're in a dark place or even if you're bonding over something stupid, I [34:16] you're bonding over something stupid, I shared the gospel with my cousin high [34:17] shared the gospel with my cousin high with him one time. That's what I'm [34:19] with him one time. That's what I'm saying. people I think some Christians [34:21] saying. people I think some Christians and there's a lot of comments I will [34:23] and there's a lot of comments I will probably give this was like 15 years ago [34:25] probably give this was like 15 years ago but just FYI I think people keep [34:27] but just FYI I think people keep forgetting that like God uses broken [34:30] forgetting that like God uses broken situations oh yeah that it says that in [34:32] situations oh yeah that it says that in weakness his his uh his strength is made [34:35] weakness his his uh his strength is made perfected so like I I don't regret all [34:39] perfected so like I I don't regret all the bad decisions I made because I [34:40] the bad decisions I made because I turned away I repented or I'm learning [34:42] turned away I repented or I'm learning and I'm growing all that being said is [34:45] and I'm growing all that being said is my podcast is for somebody who just [34:47] my podcast is for somebody who just wants to think and laugh M when I was [34:50] wants to think and laugh M when I was with my mom, we would always have deep [34:51] with my mom, we would always have deep conversations, even if it would make me [34:53] conversations, even if it would make me weep or make me sad. Yeah. But she would [34:56] weep or make me sad. Yeah. But she would always end it with a laugh. M even if we [34:59] always end it with a laugh. M even if we got in an argument, even if she was [35:00] got in an argument, even if she was grounding me, she would teach me a [35:02] grounding me, she would teach me a lesson. She would wipe my tears and then [35:04] lesson. She would wipe my tears and then she would tell me jokes and stories to [35:07] she would tell me jokes and stories to completely forget about the pain. I love [35:09] completely forget about the pain. I love your mom. She said, "Yo, I gave you the [35:11] your mom. She said, "Yo, I gave you the wisdom. There's no reason to soak in it [35:13] wisdom. There's no reason to soak in it anymore. Like, just delight yourself in [35:15] anymore. Like, just delight yourself in laughter. Your God's not hovering around [35:18] laughter. Your God's not hovering around you like this. He's hovering around you [35:20] you like this. He's hovering around you like this and wiping your tears off your [35:22] like this and wiping your tears off your face. So, I just want to be what my mom [35:24] face. So, I just want to be what my mom was for me to as many people as I [35:27] was for me to as many people as I possibly can. I love that. It's funny. I [35:30] possibly can. I love that. It's funny. I was I was at um I think we were at I was [35:33] was I was at um I think we were at I was at LA County Prison with my guy Andy Mo [35:37] at LA County Prison with my guy Andy Mo years ago and he was [35:40] years ago and he was like cuz I got like all these trauma [35:42] like cuz I got like all these trauma stories and like these like oh man I [35:44] stories and like these like oh man I went through this and I went through [35:45] went through this and I went through that and God can help you out of this [35:46] that and God can help you out of this and he was like I don't know what to [35:48] and he was like I don't know what to tell these people and I was like bro [35:50] tell these people and I was like bro you're funny and some of these people [35:52] you're funny and some of these people just need to forget the pain they're in [35:54] just need to forget the pain they're in today and laugh and I was like give them [35:57] today and laugh and I was like give them some of that and I think I I agree with [35:59] some of that and I think I I agree with you [36:00] you 10,000%. Um, but you were saying like [36:04] 10,000%. Um, but you were saying like you don't want to be disrespectful [36:06] you don't want to be disrespectful talking and I was just articulating like [36:09] talking and I was just articulating like you know smoking weed with my cousin. [36:11] you know smoking weed with my cousin. There are like some some things where I [36:14] There are like some some things where I see you like trying to process and [36:16] see you like trying to process and you're like oh I'm trying to figure this [36:18] you're like oh I'm trying to figure this stuff out. Um, and I you were on an [36:21] stuff out. Um, and I you were on an episode of Girls Gone Bible and they [36:23] episode of Girls Gone Bible and they were like hey man your mouth is kind of [36:25] were like hey man your mouth is kind of foul. You want to work on that? Yeah. [36:29] Like it's it's an interesting there's [36:32] Like it's it's an interesting there's different sides of that coin. There's [36:33] different sides of that coin. There's some people who are like they're just [36:34] some people who are like they're just words. It's just it's a culture is I [36:37] words. It's just it's a culture is I won't say it if it offends you but I [36:38] won't say it if it offends you but I don't see it that way. And there's [36:40] don't see it that way. And there's people who are like nah Ephesians says [36:42] people who are like nah Ephesians says every those are foul. So I'm just [36:44] every those are foul. So I'm just wondering like how are you now? Where do [36:46] wondering like how are you now? Where do you do you have a view on it? Yeah. So [36:50] you do you have a view on it? Yeah. So the f word in our language might not be [36:52] the f word in our language might not be the f word in another language. Okay. [36:54] the f word in another language. Okay. So, how I say the f-word to my friend, I [36:58] So, how I say the f-word to my friend, I do think that God looks at my heart. If [37:01] do think that God looks at my heart. If I'm cursing at him to hurt him, I think [37:04] I'm cursing at him to hurt him, I think there's a very big difference if I'm [37:05] there's a very big difference if I'm like, "Hey, get the f up. Come on, let's [37:07] like, "Hey, get the f up. Come on, let's go to the gym." You know what I mean? [37:08] go to the gym." You know what I mean? Like, there's a big difference. And I [37:10] Like, there's a big difference. And I don't think my God's punishing me off of [37:12] don't think my God's punishing me off of sound effects that come from my tongue. [37:14] sound effects that come from my tongue. I think he's looking at the reflection [37:16] I think he's looking at the reflection of the heart. Yeah. But that being said, [37:18] of the heart. Yeah. But that being said, he gave me a position where it affected [37:21] he gave me a position where it affected people like the Girls Gone Bible. like [37:24] people like the Girls Gone Bible. like they felt it in their heart to ask me. [37:26] they felt it in their heart to ask me. And that kind of shook me because I was [37:28] And that kind of shook me because I was like, "Oh man, like [37:30] like, "Oh man, like just because I think it's okay." And I [37:32] just because I think it's okay." And I know that God knows my heart, but if I'm [37:34] know that God knows my heart, but if I'm going to ask God, hey, I want to go out [37:36] going to ask God, hey, I want to go out and do this thing for you, how easy it [37:39] and do this thing for you, how easy it is it to put down something that you [37:41] is it to put down something that you think is good that he doesn't think is [37:42] think is good that he doesn't think is good. And then after that episode, I I [37:46] good. And then after that episode, I I hung on for a little bit. I hung on for [37:48] hung on for a little bit. I hung on for a little bit and then like a sheep, if [37:49] a little bit and then like a sheep, if I'm with a bunch of Italians, it's over [37:51] I'm with a bunch of Italians, it's over with. like it's coming out like it's the [37:53] with. like it's coming out like it's the word 'the'. And uh I would catch myself [37:56] word 'the'. And uh I would catch myself and by the way till this day I catch [37:57] and by the way till this day I catch myself if I'm if if I'm in a certain [37:59] myself if I'm if if I'm in a certain group of people I'll catch myself uh [38:01] group of people I'll catch myself uh slipping. It's kind of like my tongue [38:03] slipping. It's kind of like my tongue will mend to the atmosphere around. Mhm. [38:06] will mend to the atmosphere around. Mhm. What's keeping me from not doing that [38:08] What's keeping me from not doing that anymore is this Tik Tok I saw and this [38:11] anymore is this Tik Tok I saw and this dude goes, [38:13] dude goes, "Uh, I stopped swearing because somebody [38:16] "Uh, I stopped swearing because somebody said it's the easiest way to express [38:17] said it's the easiest way to express that you're with God without doing [38:18] that you're with God without doing anything." And I was like, yo, I was [38:22] anything." And I was like, yo, I was like, wait. And then he broke it down. [38:23] like, wait. And then he broke it down. He goes, think about it. I'm not doing [38:24] He goes, think about it. I'm not doing anything different than anybody here [38:26] anything different than anybody here except for I'm just having obedience [38:28] except for I'm just having obedience over my mouth. So I choose not to say [38:30] over my mouth. So I choose not to say those words, and they will see me apart [38:33] those words, and they will see me apart from others without even me doing [38:35] from others without even me doing anything. And so if that sets me apart, [38:38] anything. And so if that sets me apart, which God wanted me to do, I think it's [38:39] which God wanted me to do, I think it's the easiest form of doing it. And when [38:41] the easiest form of doing it. And when he said it like that, I was like, yo. I [38:44] he said it like that, I was like, yo. I was like, I never even thought about it [38:46] was like, I never even thought about it that way. Wow. Because that's what as [38:48] that way. Wow. Because that's what as Christians, we always want to do. We [38:49] Christians, we always want to do. We always want to heighten him and not us. [38:52] always want to heighten him and not us. And the way he described it is like [38:54] And the way he described it is like that's the best way to do it is just be [38:55] that's the best way to do it is just be obedience over your mouth. And also it's [38:57] obedience over your mouth. And also it's kind of like how can I have a podcast [38:59] kind of like how can I have a podcast and give all glory to God when I have no [39:01] and give all glory to God when I have no obedience over my mouth. Like it's [39:02] obedience over my mouth. Like it's hilarious. Like I got to like I got to [39:04] hilarious. Like I got to like I got to figure out the thing. And by the way, [39:05] figure out the thing. And by the way, that wrecked me. A lot of people didn't [39:07] that wrecked me. A lot of people didn't understand how bad that wrecked me cuz [39:08] understand how bad that wrecked me cuz that means like I was practicing bits [39:10] that means like I was practicing bits for like a year and then I looked at the [39:12] for like a year and then I looked at the the material that I had. I'm like, "Oh, [39:14] the material that I had. I'm like, "Oh, I can't say any of this shit." I was [39:15] I can't say any of this shit." I was like, "Okay, this this punch went away. [39:18] like, "Okay, this this punch went away. this punch went away. And so those words [39:20] this punch went away. And so those words do make some stuff so much funnier in [39:22] do make some stuff so much funnier in comedy though. Yeah, it does. It's like [39:24] comedy though. Yeah, it does. It's like a cheat code. Honestly, it's like it's [39:25] a cheat code. Honestly, it's like it's like rap music when they use words and [39:27] like rap music when they use words and stuff like that. But I kind of came to [39:29] stuff like that. But I kind of came to this conclusion. It's like, [39:32] this conclusion. It's like, yeah, but are we putting God in a box to [39:34] yeah, but are we putting God in a box to be like, "Yeah, but my art won't be as [39:36] be like, "Yeah, but my art won't be as good God if I don't use these words." [39:37] good God if I don't use these words." And he's like, "Bro, I created words." [39:39] And he's like, "Bro, I created words." Touche. He goes, "Why don't you give me [39:41] Touche. He goes, "Why don't you give me your heart, have me fix your mouth, and [39:44] your heart, have me fix your mouth, and I'll give you a mouth that's even better [39:46] I'll give you a mouth that's even better than what you expected." Yeah. Yeah. [39:47] than what you expected." Yeah. Yeah. It's kind of like, you ever seen that [39:48] It's kind of like, you ever seen that meme where it's like Jesus is holding a [39:50] meme where it's like Jesus is holding a bear behind his back? Yeah. That's [39:52] bear behind his back? Yeah. That's everything in my life with him. It's [39:54] everything in my life with him. It's like, "Yo, why do I got to stop [39:55] like, "Yo, why do I got to stop swearing?" He goes, "I don't know. So [39:56] swearing?" He goes, "I don't know. So you don't sound like a hooligan when [39:58] you don't sound like a hooligan when you're talking." I was like, "Okay, [39:59] you're talking." I was like, "Okay, yeah, but why do I have to really manage [40:01] yeah, but why do I have to really manage my money?" He goes, "So you could have a [40:03] my money?" He goes, "So you could have a roof above your head? Like there's so [40:05] roof above your head? Like there's so many things that bear behind my back, [40:08] many things that bear behind my back, boy." I'm like, "But this broken one is [40:11] boy." I'm like, "But this broken one is good. I like it." And then in your mind, [40:12] good. I like it." And then in your mind, you're like, "No, see, I'm I'm [40:14] you're like, "No, see, I'm I'm grateful." Yeah. I wrestle with that, [40:16] grateful." Yeah. I wrestle with that, too. like you know like I agree. I've [40:20] too. like you know like I agree. I've had conversations with folks and I'm [40:22] had conversations with folks and I'm like a curse is actually like a heart [40:25] like a curse is actually like a heart issue. So it's like if if I if I'm [40:28] issue. So it's like if if I if I'm giving someone grace [40:31] giving someone grace like I'm saying like yo bro [40:36] you [40:37] you are you kicked a blank. Yeah. But I'm [40:41] are you kicked a blank. Yeah. But I'm saying it to let them know like you did [40:43] saying it to let them know like you did great. You kicked a on that test. Yeah. [40:45] great. You kicked a on that test. Yeah. I'm trying to give you grace. I'm not [40:47] I'm trying to give you grace. I'm not trying to curse you. Yeah. And it's [40:50] trying to curse you. Yeah. And it's interesting because it's not really the [40:51] interesting because it's not really the word, it's the intention. Because if I [40:53] word, it's the intention. Because if I say if I say, man, you're a freaking [40:57] say if I say, man, you're a freaking pine cone head. And in my heart, I mean, [40:59] pine cone head. And in my heart, I mean, I hate your guts. I cursed you. Like [41:01] I hate your guts. I cursed you. Like it's that I cursed you. Like God knows [41:03] it's that I cursed you. Like God knows my heart. So, but at the same time, like [41:05] my heart. So, but at the same time, like you, I'm like, [41:07] you, I'm like, what's the easy like Romans 14, it's [41:09] what's the easy like Romans 14, it's kind of like if I don't think it's demon [41:11] kind of like if I don't think it's demon meat, but they do think it's meat that [41:13] meat, but they do think it's meat that sacrifices demons, I just won't eat it [41:14] sacrifices demons, I just won't eat it in front of you. You know what I'm [41:15] in front of you. You know what I'm saying? It's like, yeah, it's cool. It's [41:16] saying? It's like, yeah, it's cool. It's easier to not eat it. No big deal. But [41:19] easier to not eat it. No big deal. But also, I will say this when [41:22] also, I will say this when because I I agree with you. I understand [41:23] because I I agree with you. I understand that swearing to me, it's just kind of [41:25] that swearing to me, it's just kind of like what? Again, it's everything to me, [41:28] like what? Again, it's everything to me, it's like a reflection. Anything you do, [41:30] it's like a reflection. Anything you do, you act, you say, God knows your intent [41:32] you act, you say, God knows your intent and where you're going with things. I [41:33] and where you're going with things. I think that's how he judges. I don't [41:34] think that's how he judges. I don't know, but that's where I'm at in my [41:36] know, but that's where I'm at in my life. Um, but I will say that when I did [41:38] life. Um, but I will say that when I did take a step to correct my mouth, I did. [41:42] take a step to correct my mouth, I did. God never says, "Hey, I need you to go [41:44] God never says, "Hey, I need you to go do this. Could you get up and go?" God [41:47] do this. Could you get up and go?" God always goes, "Get up, go." And then [41:50] always goes, "Get up, go." And then while you're going, he gives you the [41:51] while you're going, he gives you the reason on why you're going. He never [41:53] reason on why you're going. He never gives you the reason first. It's kind of [41:55] gives you the reason first. It's kind of like how my mom and dad grew up teaching [41:57] like how my mom and dad grew up teaching me. If I if my mom and dad like, "Get [41:59] me. If I if my mom and dad like, "Get up, get dressed. We're leaving." If I [42:01] up, get dressed. We're leaving." If I was like, "Where are we going?" He'd be [42:02] was like, "Where are we going?" He'd be like, "What are you asking me? Where are [42:03] like, "What are you asking me? Where are we going? Get your ass up, go get [42:05] we going? Get your ass up, go get dressed." He would never let me sit [42:07] dressed." He would never let me sit there and like ask back because in my [42:10] there and like ask back because in my home it's disrespectful to ask my father [42:14] home it's disrespectful to ask my father why why my dad goes why. Yeah. You don't [42:17] why why my dad goes why. Yeah. You don't ask me why. Yeah. Get up. And so if I'm [42:21] ask me why. Yeah. Get up. And so if I'm going to give that respect to my father [42:22] going to give that respect to my father on earth, I'm not going to disrespect my [42:25] on earth, I'm not going to disrespect my father in heaven. So when I was looking [42:26] father in heaven. So when I was looking at this and I'm seeing this girl say [42:28] at this and I'm seeing this girl say this and I'm seeing other people say [42:30] this and I'm seeing other people say this, instead of me being like, nah, I'm [42:33] this, instead of me being like, nah, I'm going to be like, all right, I'm going [42:33] going to be like, all right, I'm going to give this a try. And I will admit [42:35] to give this a try. And I will admit this, when I gave it a try, I never knew [42:37] this, when I gave it a try, I never knew how follow my mouth was. Yeah. Yeah. [42:39] how follow my mouth was. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I never knew how pervert LA and [42:42] Yeah. I never knew how pervert LA and New York, it's like it's it's every [42:44] New York, it's like it's it's every other word I cuz I live in the south. [42:46] other word I cuz I live in the south. It's almost like it's not it's [42:49] It's almost like it's not it's culturally [42:50] culturally inhospitable to use swear words in the [42:53] inhospitable to use swear words in the south. But LA, New York, when I get to [42:55] south. But LA, New York, when I get to the coast, it's like I'll meet the [42:57] the coast, it's like I'll meet the sweetest old lady on the elevator and [42:59] sweetest old lady on the elevator and she'll just every other word. You know [43:01] she'll just every other word. You know what I'm saying? It's like just normal. [43:03] what I'm saying? It's like just normal. Yeah. And by the way, like do I do I [43:06] Yeah. And by the way, like do I do I still swear? Yeah. I'm not I'm not [43:07] still swear? Yeah. I'm not I'm not saying I'm I'm perfect. There's times [43:09] saying I'm I'm perfect. There's times where I mess up, like I said. But again, [43:11] where I mess up, like I said. But again, I think that when I meet God, [43:14] I think that when I meet God, I just want to position my heart where [43:16] I just want to position my heart where it's like, yo, I know I'm not perfect, [43:18] it's like, yo, I know I'm not perfect, but me and you both know I gave him my [43:20] but me and you both know I gave him my absolute best. Yeah. Yeah. And so that's [43:22] absolute best. Yeah. Yeah. And so that's all I want to do. I want to give him the [43:24] all I want to do. I want to give him the best so that way like you know how like [43:27] best so that way like you know how like my father on earth looks at me and he's [43:29] my father on earth looks at me and he's pleased. I want him to also and also my [43:32] pleased. I want him to also and also my son when he comes out. Yeah, my son's [43:33] son when he comes out. Yeah, my son's not going to be perfect. He's probably [43:34] not going to be perfect. He's probably going to be dumb. Got my jeans. You are [43:36] going to be dumb. Got my jeans. You are stupid. Yeah. You know what I mean? Like [43:38] stupid. Yeah. You know what I mean? Like you are dumb. Yeah. But he's going to [43:40] you are dumb. Yeah. But he's going to mess up a lot, but I'm going to love [43:41] mess up a lot, but I'm going to love him. I think I think some Christians are [43:44] him. I think I think some Christians are like it's hilarious cuz once you go into [43:46] like it's hilarious cuz once you go into the Christian world and you read the [43:47] the Christian world and you read the comments and you see the thing, you're [43:49] comments and you see the thing, you're like, "Yo, you guys are a bunch of [43:50] like, "Yo, you guys are a bunch of perfect humans." Yeah. Right. And it's [43:52] perfect humans." Yeah. Right. And it's like wild. I used to get angry at [43:54] like wild. I used to get angry at comments like that. until I realized I'm [43:56] comments like that. until I realized I'm like, "Oh, dude, if they're if they if [43:58] like, "Oh, dude, if they're if they if they have the time and day to leave a [44:00] they have the time and day to leave a comment and let alone a paragraph, yo, [44:03] comment and let alone a paragraph, yo, what are they doing to themselves?" [44:06] what are they doing to themselves?" Listen, what I'm saying? They're [44:08] Listen, what I'm saying? They're probably too harsh on themselves. That's [44:09] probably too harsh on themselves. That's what I'm saying. Like, I give myself [44:11] what I'm saying. Like, I give myself grace because I give my neighbor grace. [44:13] grace because I give my neighbor grace. You know what I mean? Like, but like the [44:14] You know what I mean? Like, but like the person that's leaving a paragraph like, [44:15] person that's leaving a paragraph like, "I cannot believe this heretic and d" [44:18] "I cannot believe this heretic and d" and they're saying all these things and [44:20] and they're saying all these things and I'm like, "Yo, like [44:22] I'm like, "Yo, like I I'm so scared of how you measure [44:24] I I'm so scared of how you measure yourself." like you need to chill [44:25] yourself." like you need to chill because I was that person. I understand [44:28] because I was that person. I understand what they're thinking and how they think [44:29] what they're thinking and how they think in their mind. We got to fix this. We [44:31] in their mind. We got to fix this. We got to fix this. But a lot of people [44:33] got to fix this. But a lot of people think that they have to get up and fix [44:35] think that they have to get up and fix themselves for God. And I'm in a path in [44:38] themselves for God. And I'm in a path in my life. I could be wrong. Again, I'm [44:40] my life. I could be wrong. Again, I'm not a teacher. Mhm. I love God so much [44:43] not a teacher. Mhm. I love God so much and listen to his word so much. And I [44:44] and listen to his word so much. And I wait on the Lord. He changes and [44:47] wait on the Lord. He changes and transforms my heart. My works and my [44:50] transforms my heart. My works and my fruits are not from myself. from what [44:52] fruits are not from myself. from what he's given me and the ability for me to [44:54] he's given me and the ability for me to do it. So, I'm not going to be too harsh [44:56] do it. So, I'm not going to be too harsh on myself. I do believe him when he [44:58] on myself. I do believe him when he says, "The good works that I started, I [44:59] says, "The good works that I started, I will finish." Yeah. So, if I'm not where [45:02] will finish." Yeah. So, if I'm not where I want to be, I praise God and I say, "I [45:04] I want to be, I praise God and I say, "I can't wait until I'm there." If I am [45:05] can't wait until I'm there." If I am where I am there, I praise God again. [45:07] where I am there, I praise God again. So, I just I'm not in a self-deprecation [45:10] So, I just I'm not in a self-deprecation mode anymore. I rock with your honesty [45:12] mode anymore. I rock with your honesty because you say stuff that a lot of [45:14] because you say stuff that a lot of people want to say, but they're scared [45:16] people want to say, but they're scared because the internet will destroy them. [45:18] because the internet will destroy them. Yeah. And I like that. like like let's [45:21] Yeah. And I like that. like like let's talk about weed. Yeah. And I saw you [45:24] talk about weed. Yeah. And I saw you with Cliff. Yeah. Lovely. And [45:26] with Cliff. Yeah. Lovely. And you But it was so dope to me that you [45:29] you But it was so dope to me that you were just like So, do I stop smoking or [45:32] were just like So, do I stop smoking or No, cuz I So, I I've sat with so many [45:35] No, cuz I So, I I've sat with so many like Bible scholars and so many people, [45:39] like Bible scholars and so many people, bro. Like, I'm not going to mention [45:40] bro. Like, I'm not going to mention their names cuz I don't want them to get [45:42] their names cuz I don't want them to get smoked out. But when I heard them talk [45:44] smoked out. But when I heard them talk to me about [45:46] to me about this, I was way harder on myself Mhm. [45:50] this, I was way harder on myself Mhm. than a lot of people were on me and and [45:52] than a lot of people were on me and and marijuana and drinking and drinking a [45:56] marijuana and drinking and drinking a Coca-Cola or eating fast food. How I see [46:00] Coca-Cola or eating fast food. How I see it right now, and again, I'll clarify, [46:02] it right now, and again, I'll clarify, not a teacher. I'm just somebody who's [46:03] not a teacher. I'm just somebody who's learning. I think Paul's serious when he [46:06] learning. I think Paul's serious when he says that everything is lawful, but not [46:08] says that everything is lawful, but not everything is good for you. Mhm. So I [46:11] everything is good for you. Mhm. So I think that smoking marijuana or drinking [46:13] think that smoking marijuana or drinking or eating fast food or having a coffee [46:17] or eating fast food or having a coffee if you if you're not a slave to it Mhm. [46:20] if you if you're not a slave to it Mhm. and you have and you're you master it, I [46:23] and you have and you're you master it, I don't think it's a problem. Yeah. I [46:25] don't think it's a problem. Yeah. I think it's more of a problem if you need [46:27] think it's more of a problem if you need it or if you're running to it instead of [46:29] it or if you're running to it instead of running to God. Mhm. for the for [46:31] running to God. Mhm. for the for example, not a lot of people might agree [46:33] example, not a lot of people might agree with me, but I think a man that runs to [46:36] with me, but I think a man that runs to marijuana to run away from his anxiety [46:38] marijuana to run away from his anxiety and depression instead of opening up the [46:40] and depression instead of opening up the gospel and running to the Lord is the [46:42] gospel and running to the Lord is the same man that says, "Don't talk to me [46:44] same man that says, "Don't talk to me until I have my morning coffee." [46:46] until I have my morning coffee." We look at it in a way that we're like, [46:48] We look at it in a way that we're like, "Oh, well, obviously marijuana is [46:50] "Oh, well, obviously marijuana is worse." Why is because your government [46:52] worse." Why is because your government says it. Well, the government now [46:53] says it. Well, the government now doesn't say that. Your grandparents [46:55] doesn't say that. Your grandparents thought that, but your children won't [46:57] thought that, but your children won't say that. So, you sway to the world in [46:59] say that. So, you sway to the world in what they think. I sway to what God [47:01] what they think. I sway to what God thinks. So when I read the gospel, I [47:04] thinks. So when I read the gospel, I think he tells me to be sober minded [47:06] think he tells me to be sober minded because that the lion is roaring. So [47:08] because that the lion is roaring. So that's why I'm always like, "All right, [47:09] that's why I'm always like, "All right, I got to make sure that I'm sober." And [47:11] I got to make sure that I'm sober." And I also got to show respect. I think he [47:13] I also got to show respect. I think he gave me a lot of work. So I can't be [47:14] gave me a lot of work. So I can't be throwing away my life smoking marijuana. [47:17] throwing away my life smoking marijuana. Mhm. Um when I did smoke um a tremendous [47:21] Mhm. Um when I did smoke um a tremendous amount, it wasn't that I was smoking [47:24] amount, it wasn't that I was smoking marijuana that caused me um my Holy [47:28] marijuana that caused me um my Holy Spirit to jump out at me. Mhm. It was [47:29] Spirit to jump out at me. Mhm. It was the fact that I was running to it [47:31] the fact that I was running to it instead of to him. That's what I was [47:33] instead of to him. That's what I was going to ask you. What were you running [47:34] going to ask you. What were you running from? Yeah. Yeah. And so, and then also [47:36] from? Yeah. Yeah. And so, and then also it's like a coping mechanism. But a lot [47:38] it's like a coping mechanism. But a lot of people will look down at another [47:40] of people will look down at another person's [47:42] person's like habits. Yeah. But they don't look [47:44] like habits. Yeah. But they don't look at their own. So, for example, I do look [47:47] at their own. So, for example, I do look at like people that uh drink. I used to [47:51] at like people that uh drink. I used to look at them like, "Oh man, they threw [47:52] look at them like, "Oh man, they threw away their life." But now I look at it [47:54] away their life." But now I look at it like, man, they attached their healing [47:57] like, man, they attached their healing process to something that's killing [47:58] process to something that's killing them. And so I show them a lot more [48:00] them. And so I show them a lot more grace. And I'm like, "Yo, God, I pray [48:02] grace. And I'm like, "Yo, God, I pray that they realize that you're the one [48:04] that they realize that you're the one that gives them peace and not the [48:05] that gives them peace and not the bottle." Yeah. And so I got uh into [48:09] bottle." Yeah. And so I got uh into marijuana in a slippery slope. Not [48:11] marijuana in a slippery slope. Not because I thought it was cool. I never [48:14] because I thought it was cool. I never touched any drinking or uh drugs. Never. [48:17] touched any drinking or uh drugs. Never. Never touched any of that until I was [48:19] Never touched any of that until I was 27. And I had really, really bad [48:21] 27. And I had really, really bad insomnia. I couldn't sleep and doctors [48:24] insomnia. I couldn't sleep and doctors wanted to prescribe me um medication to [48:27] wanted to prescribe me um medication to sleep. And my and I brought everything [48:29] sleep. And my and I brought everything to my mom and dad. Even though I'm [48:30] to my mom and dad. Even though I'm older, I still bring everything to my [48:31] older, I still bring everything to my mom and dad. And my mom and dad are [48:33] mom and dad. And my mom and dad are like, "No, you're not taking these [48:34] like, "No, you're not taking these pills." They're like, "You're going to [48:36] pills." They're like, "You're going to die. You're going to get addicted. We're [48:37] die. You're going to get addicted. We're not doing this." And then I and I looked [48:40] not doing this." And then I and I looked at them and mind you, I wasn't trying to [48:41] at them and mind you, I wasn't trying to get one in on them. Like I didn't even [48:44] get one in on them. Like I didn't even like marijuana. I I never thought about [48:45] like marijuana. I I never thought about it. I never did anything. And I was [48:46] it. I never did anything. And I was like, "Oh, you know, like marijuana um [48:49] like, "Oh, you know, like marijuana um helps for people to like calm down." [48:51] helps for people to like calm down." Some people need a coffee to wake up and [48:53] Some people need a coffee to wake up and some people like you know how they're [48:56] some people like you know how they're like squirrel they look I'm the squirrel [48:58] like squirrel they look I'm the squirrel like I I I am the squirrel like I I will [49:01] like I I I am the squirrel like I I will I I am all over the place at all times [49:03] I I am all over the place at all times so I need to calm down and and relax. [49:06] so I need to calm down and and relax. The ADHD is with this one. Yes. Yes. [49:09] The ADHD is with this one. Yes. Yes. Yeah. And uh the force is strong. So I [49:13] Yeah. And uh the force is strong. So I started smoking to calm me down. But [49:15] started smoking to calm me down. But double-edged [49:17] double-edged sword. My Holy Spirit was convicting me. [49:19] sword. My Holy Spirit was convicting me. Why are you trying to slow down what God [49:20] Why are you trying to slow down what God put in you? M So I I didn't read the [49:24] put in you? M So I I didn't read the comments to slow me down. When I saw [49:26] comments to slow me down. When I saw people like, "How dare he?" I'd laugh. [49:28] people like, "How dare he?" I'd laugh. I'd be like, "Bro, you think God is [49:30] I'd be like, "Bro, you think God is sitting around in heaven be like, yo, [49:31] sitting around in heaven be like, yo, yo, yo, he can't get into heaven. He's [49:32] yo, yo, he can't get into heaven. He's smoking weed." Like, dude, like, let's [49:34] smoking weed." Like, dude, like, let's be real. Like, there's lust in here [49:36] be real. Like, there's lust in here that's way worse. There's anger. There's [49:38] that's way worse. There's anger. There's jealousy. You gossiping. Let me tell you [49:40] jealousy. You gossiping. Let me tell you something. God spoke more about [49:41] something. God spoke more about gossiping than he did being sober. I [49:43] gossiping than he did being sober. I could go I could open up the book. I [49:45] could go I could open up the book. I don't really care to listen to what the [49:47] don't really care to listen to what the world is telling me. Am I gonna listen [49:49] world is telling me. Am I gonna listen to the world or am I going to listen to [49:50] to the world or am I going to listen to God? But then there's times where you [49:53] God? But then there's times where you have to listen to brothers and sisters. [49:55] have to listen to brothers and sisters. So my mentor is like, I don't like the [49:57] So my mentor is like, I don't like the way you're going about marijuana because [50:00] way you're going about marijuana because you run to it instead of running to God. [50:02] you run to it instead of running to God. And it's more your peace than he is your [50:04] And it's more your peace than he is your peace. Yeah. And he says, wherever you [50:06] peace. Yeah. And he says, wherever you run to during your crisis is where your [50:09] run to during your crisis is where your crisis. [50:11] crisis. Wait, time out. Yeah. Yeah. Run that [50:13] Wait, time out. Yeah. Yeah. Run that back. He goes, "Wherever you run during [50:16] back. He goes, "Wherever you run during your crisis is where your crisis is." [50:19] your crisis is where your crisis is." Oh, that's hard. I like that. That's so [50:20] Oh, that's hard. I like that. That's so hard. That's hard. That's good. I like [50:22] hard. That's hard. That's good. I like that. And uh so then I pass in the blunt [50:24] that. And uh so then I pass in the blunt and [50:27] and I'll be like, "That's crazy." Yo. Yo, [50:30] I'll be like, "That's crazy." Yo. Yo, that's crazy. [50:32] that's crazy. That's so funny. Uh and so I just kind [50:35] That's so funny. Uh and so I just kind of step by step and I I I just started [50:38] of step by step and I I I just started fixing these little things. Do I still [50:39] fixing these little things. Do I still struggle with my mouth? Yes. Do I still [50:41] struggle with my mouth? Yes. Do I still struggle with marijuana? I think I do. I [50:43] struggle with marijuana? I think I do. I I kind of use it in a more respectful [50:45] I kind of use it in a more respectful way. I still talk to my mom and dad. I [50:47] way. I still talk to my mom and dad. I talk to my wife. I talk to my friends. I [50:48] talk to my wife. I talk to my friends. I talk to my loved ones. Hey, has this [50:50] talk to my loved ones. Hey, has this interrupted our flow? Has this got in [50:52] interrupted our flow? Has this got in the way? All of them say no. All of them [50:54] the way? All of them say no. All of them say this. I talk to uh professors, Bible [50:57] say this. I talk to uh professors, Bible scholars. Hey, if I'm using this as a [50:59] scholars. Hey, if I'm using this as a medical use, and I'm actually am I'm [51:00] medical use, and I'm actually am I'm like I'm monitoring it, making sure [51:02] like I'm monitoring it, making sure like, hey, am I using it for this or [51:03] like, hey, am I using it for this or that? And it's so funny, the more I [51:06] that? And it's so funny, the more I realize this, like the more I just focus [51:08] realize this, like the more I just focus on God and not the problem, I get to the [51:11] on God and not the problem, I get to the solution quicker. I think sometimes we [51:13] solution quicker. I think sometimes we get put up against an obstacle that [51:15] get put up against an obstacle that we're like hard to put down. If it's an [51:17] we're like hard to put down. If it's an addiction or if it's, for example, I [51:19] addiction or if it's, for example, I praise God that this is not mine, but a [51:21] praise God that this is not mine, but a lot of men deal with pornography, right? [51:23] lot of men deal with pornography, right? And it's like that's a secret one. Like [51:25] And it's like that's a secret one. Like you condemn other people, but you deal [51:26] you condemn other people, but you deal with it secretly. Um, how I got over [51:29] with it secretly. Um, how I got over that cuz I grew up in the day and age [51:31] that cuz I grew up in the day and age where we were the first kids that got [51:33] where we were the first kids that got like laptops and Wi-Fi. So we were the [51:35] like laptops and Wi-Fi. So we were the kids that like could bring dirty stuff [51:36] kids that like could bring dirty stuff into our bedroom. Our parents would [51:38] into our bedroom. Our parents would never find out about it. So we were the [51:40] never find out about it. So we were the first generation to get into that [51:41] first generation to get into that addiction. So the way I got out of it [51:44] addiction. So the way I got out of it wasn't by like God, I'm going to beat [51:46] wasn't by like God, I'm going to beat this lust. My it was by trusting God [51:49] this lust. My it was by trusting God that he's going to handle it and then [51:52] that he's going to handle it and then teach me the way I should look at a [51:53] teach me the way I should look at a woman or teach me how to behave to [51:55] woman or teach me how to behave to women. And and through the process of me [51:57] women. And and through the process of me keeping my eyes on Christ, I found the [51:59] keeping my eyes on Christ, I found the way the way that he describes. He is the [52:02] way the way that he describes. He is the way, the truth, and the life. So if you [52:04] way, the truth, and the life. So if you want a way out of addiction or a way out [52:06] want a way out of addiction or a way out of your sin, just focus on Christ and [52:09] of your sin, just focus on Christ and his words and not yours because the the [52:11] his words and not yours because the the rinse and repeat cycle that the devil [52:13] rinse and repeat cycle that the devil got is, "Yo, yo, do it. It's fine, bro. [52:16] got is, "Yo, yo, do it. It's fine, bro. It's medical." And then you do it. Man, [52:19] It's medical." And then you do it. Man, I can't believe this guy did it. Yo, [52:20] I can't believe this guy did it. Yo, you're crazy. God hates you. And like, [52:22] you're crazy. God hates you. And like, so this is just repeat cycle and it's [52:25] so this is just repeat cycle and it's like, all right, am I the hero or do I [52:28] like, all right, am I the hero or do I need a hero? And you got to humble [52:30] need a hero? And you got to humble yourself. And so that's good. Yeah. I I [52:31] yourself. And so that's good. Yeah. I I think the reason why I'm able to be [52:33] think the reason why I'm able to be honest on podcasts or um behind closed [52:37] honest on podcasts or um behind closed doors is because [52:40] doors is because when I'm sitting here talking to you, I [52:41] when I'm sitting here talking to you, I really do believe that God's sitting [52:43] really do believe that God's sitting right here and that he's listening to [52:45] right here and that he's listening to us. And have you ever been with a friend [52:46] us. And have you ever been with a friend that acts different in a room and you're [52:48] that acts different in a room and you're like and you look at him and you get [52:49] like and you look at him and you get kind of like it's not even you. You're [52:51] kind of like it's not even you. You're like, "Dude, why are you It's weird. [52:53] like, "Dude, why are you It's weird. Like chill." My biggest fear is that I [52:56] Like chill." My biggest fear is that I do that with God. [52:58] do that with God. So when I'm in the prayer room with him [52:59] So when I'm in the prayer room with him and then I walk into the living room or [53:01] and then I walk into the living room or I walk in on stage, I want the respect [53:04] I walk in on stage, I want the respect for him that when I'm with him, I'm the [53:06] for him that when I'm with him, I'm the same when I am alone with him. I like [53:08] same when I am alone with him. I like that you're open though like [53:11] that you're open though like to challenge or correction like you're [53:14] to challenge or correction like you're not like cuz there's some people who are [53:16] not like cuz there's some people who are like they're like I listen man I you [53:20] like they're like I listen man I you know just tell me when you get to heaven [53:21] know just tell me when you get to heaven bro I don't care what you say. You know [53:23] bro I don't care what you say. You know what I'm saying? You're like all right [53:25] what I'm saying? You're like all right I'll listen. Let me hear what you got to [53:26] I'll listen. Let me hear what you got to say. I'm curious like of all the people [53:28] say. I'm curious like of all the people you've had on the show, you've had like [53:30] you've had on the show, you've had like everybody Russell Brand to Andrew Tate, [53:33] everybody Russell Brand to Andrew Tate, you know, to freaking Yeah. Cliff, who [53:37] you know, to freaking Yeah. Cliff, who do you feel like has challenged you the [53:38] do you feel like has challenged you the most [53:39] most to change? Oh, challenged me the most. [53:43] to change? Oh, challenged me the most. Change. Um [53:49] uh I think the ones who challenge me the [53:51] uh I think the ones who challenge me the most are not the ones who are actually [53:52] most are not the ones who are actually like coming up to me and challenging me [53:55] like coming up to me and challenging me with their words. [53:58] with their words. Uh I think the ones who challenge me [54:00] Uh I think the ones who challenge me when I stand next to them and I'm like, [54:03] when I stand next to them and I'm like, "Ooh, [54:04] "Ooh, I bet God's super pleased with this [54:06] I bet God's super pleased with this guy." And so I'm obsessed with how I [54:09] guy." And so I'm obsessed with how I could best serve God. So, when I'm [54:11] could best serve God. So, when I'm hanging out with Cliff and I'm seeing [54:13] hanging out with Cliff and I'm seeing the way he treats his wife or his son or [54:16] the way he treats his wife or his son or the way he speaks to me on a podcast and [54:18] the way he speaks to me on a podcast and then off a [54:19] then off a podcast, the way he has his relationship [54:21] podcast, the way he has his relationship with God, it's like when I was with him, [54:24] with God, it's like when I was with him, it's like I could breathe better. Like [54:26] it's like I could breathe better. Like there was better air around him. And I [54:28] there was better air around him. And I said, "Yo," I go, "When I'm with him, [54:31] said, "Yo," I go, "When I'm with him, because he's so close to God and he's so [54:34] because he's so close to God and he's so loving to God and he's so loving to his [54:36] loving to God and he's so loving to his neighbors that when I'm with him, I [54:38] neighbors that when I'm with him, I truly feel like I'm actually closer with [54:40] truly feel like I'm actually closer with God, it makes me be like, "Oh, I have to [54:43] God, it makes me be like, "Oh, I have to be that for somebody else. I have to be [54:46] be that for somebody else. I have to be that for somebody else." Um, so I think [54:49] that for somebody else." Um, so I think Cliff I think Cliff kind of motivated me [54:52] Cliff I think Cliff kind of motivated me the most because he has that old man [54:55] the most because he has that old man swag where he's like, "Yo, I don't care [54:58] swag where he's like, "Yo, I don't care what any of you little kids think of me. [55:00] what any of you little kids think of me. Like I've been around the block." You [55:01] Like I've been around the block." You know what I mean? Like like I'm raising [55:03] know what I mean? Like like I'm raising up Sunny Boy Stewart around me. I don't [55:06] up Sunny Boy Stewart around me. I don't like I don't need to read the comments [55:07] like I don't need to read the comments like like orthopedic shoes and [55:09] like like orthopedic shoes and compression socks and I don't care what [55:11] compression socks and I don't care what you say about it. Yeah, I mean like I I [55:15] you say about it. Yeah, I mean like I I he's the one that I look up to and I'm [55:17] he's the one that I look up to and I'm like, "Yo, okay, cool." And that's many, [55:19] like, "Yo, okay, cool." And that's many, right, that I have my I have my mentor, [55:20] right, that I have my I have my mentor, Robert. I think that my dad taught me [55:23] Robert. I think that my dad taught me when I was growing up, be a sponge. He [55:25] when I was growing up, be a sponge. He goes, when you walk in a room, absorb, [55:27] goes, when you walk in a room, absorb, be quiet, listen, learn from their [55:29] be quiet, listen, learn from their mistakes so you don't have to make it [55:30] mistakes so you don't have to make it your own. You got great parents, bro. [55:31] your own. You got great parents, bro. Sidebar. Oh, bro. Like, you got great [55:33] Sidebar. Oh, bro. Like, you got great parents. My my whole bit on stage is [55:36] parents. My my whole bit on stage is like just the way I was raised was it it [55:39] like just the way I was raised was it it quite funny actually very funny. [55:44] quite funny actually very funny. Uh but extremely knowledgeable to manage [55:48] Uh but extremely knowledgeable to manage this life [55:50] this life learning from two immigrants that had [55:52] learning from two immigrants that had nothing here and had to raise their own [55:54] nothing here and had to raise their own parents. Uh becoming millionaires [55:57] parents. Uh becoming millionaires themselves and raising me to not worship [55:59] themselves and raising me to not worship money and and to serve my neighbors as [56:02] money and and to serve my neighbors as best as I can. I have to bring that to [56:04] best as I can. I have to bring that to the stage. Like I felt like when I was [56:07] the stage. Like I felt like when I was listening to my parents growing up, I [56:08] listening to my parents growing up, I felt like I couldn't keep this to [56:10] felt like I couldn't keep this to myself. Like I I would notice when I [56:12] myself. Like I I would notice when I would come home, all of my neighborhood [56:14] would come home, all of my neighborhood friends would be sitting at the dinner [56:16] friends would be sitting at the dinner table just listening to my mom and dad. [56:18] table just listening to my mom and dad. And so like at a young age, I kind of [56:20] And so like at a young age, I kind of realized I'm like, "Oh, like I like the [56:21] realized I'm like, "Oh, like I like the biggest blessing God could give a man is [56:24] biggest blessing God could give a man is a good set of parents." Wow. And so like [56:28] a good set of parents." Wow. And so like I can't just throw this away. I I I'm [56:31] I can't just throw this away. I I I'm not to get to be long- winded, but my [56:34] not to get to be long- winded, but my bit is basically about I I grew up in [56:37] bit is basically about I I grew up in Scottsdale, Arizona, and that's like a [56:39] Scottsdale, Arizona, and that's like a very very nice area. But I was also [56:42] very very nice area. But I was also raised in the hood of Arizona because my [56:44] raised in the hood of Arizona because my dad had a liquor store. So I had this [56:46] dad had a liquor store. So I had this parallel life where I would grow up with [56:48] parallel life where I would grow up with kids that their first cars were like [56:51] kids that their first cars were like freaking Lamborghinis or Ferraris. And [56:54] freaking Lamborghinis or Ferraris. And then I also grow up with kids that are [56:57] then I also grow up with kids that are like, "Yo, we share this hunt in the [56:58] like, "Yo, we share this hunt in the like all the whole family." and we all [57:01] like all the whole family." and we all sleep in one bedroom. And so when I was [57:04] sleep in one bedroom. And so when I was raised with both sets of lifestyles, I [57:08] raised with both sets of lifestyles, I realized that on both ends, the only [57:12] realized that on both ends, the only thing that changes the home is the [57:13] thing that changes the home is the parents. It isn't the circumstance. It [57:16] parents. It isn't the circumstance. It isn't the finance. It isn't the [57:18] isn't the finance. It isn't the security. Is it isn't the school. It [57:20] security. Is it isn't the school. It isn't the government. It isn't your [57:22] isn't the government. It isn't your friends. It's who are your king and [57:24] friends. It's who are your king and queens? Who do you bow your head in when [57:26] queens? Who do you bow your head in when you walk into that home? Who's the ruler [57:28] you walk into that home? Who's the ruler of your life? And if you have a good set [57:31] of your life? And if you have a good set of parents that actually love you and [57:33] of parents that actually love you and you listen to their discipline and their [57:36] you listen to their discipline and their and their morale, I think you have a way [57:39] and their morale, I think you have a way better fighting chance than somebody [57:41] better fighting chance than somebody whose parents unfortunately are nowhere [57:44] whose parents unfortunately are nowhere around. That's great, man. Yeah. [57:47] around. That's great, man. Yeah. Um, what's going on with you today? You [57:51] Um, what's going on with you today? You got, you know, newly married. Like, [57:53] got, you know, newly married. Like, where where's George at now? What's [57:55] where where's George at now? What's going on? You know, it's so funny. I I [57:58] going on? You know, it's so funny. I I was just talking to my wife and I said, [58:00] was just talking to my wife and I said, "It's been 11 years I've been in LA." [58:03] "It's been 11 years I've been in LA." Um, and I just feel like it just [58:05] Um, and I just feel like it just started. [58:06] started. I just I feel like it just started. I [58:08] I just I feel like it just started. I feel like this whole time I've been out [58:11] feel like this whole time I've been out here, uh, it was like this boot camp and [58:14] here, uh, it was like this boot camp and God was kind of washing me and preparing [58:16] God was kind of washing me and preparing me and being patient with me. And now [58:19] me and being patient with me. And now I'm going on tour and I want to hit this [58:22] I'm going on tour and I want to hit this stage where I want people to laugh and [58:26] stage where I want people to laugh and cry and scream. And when they walk away, [58:30] cry and scream. And when they walk away, I want them to feel what I felt like in [58:32] I want them to feel what I felt like in my living room with my parents and my [58:34] my living room with my parents and my sister. And it was just like we would [58:36] sister. And it was just like we would all have deep conversations, cry, and [58:38] all have deep conversations, cry, and then end it with laughing, wiping our [58:40] then end it with laughing, wiping our tears. And when we went to bed, we just [58:42] tears. And when we went to bed, we just felt like there's no way anything bad [58:46] felt like there's no way anything bad could be here. It's like we there's a [58:49] could be here. It's like we there's a real God here and uh I don't want to [58:52] real God here and uh I don't want to hide the medicine. I think a lot of [58:54] hide the medicine. I think a lot of people write books and have these [58:56] people write books and have these seminars and they tuck away that it [59:00] seminars and they tuck away that it comes from God. And I'm saying, "Hey, [59:03] comes from God. And I'm saying, "Hey, I'm not your medicine and I'm not your [59:04] I'm not your medicine and I'm not your healer. I'm just the messenger. If [59:07] healer. I'm just the messenger. If you're not going to shoot the messenger, [59:08] you're not going to shoot the messenger, don't thank the messenger." So, I just [59:11] don't thank the messenger." So, I just want to go on stage and make people [59:12] want to go on stage and make people laugh and let them know I'm just as [59:14] laugh and let them know I'm just as grateful to be on stage. Yeah. As they [59:16] grateful to be on stage. Yeah. As they are to sit there watching Yeah. And that [59:19] are to sit there watching Yeah. And that if God keeps blessing my feet in my [59:21] if God keeps blessing my feet in my mouth to keep entertaining them, then [59:22] mouth to keep entertaining them, then I'll just keep moving. And if he tells [59:24] I'll just keep moving. And if he tells me to come home and it's time, then I'll [59:26] me to come home and it's time, then I'll just come home. And I think I'm just I I [59:29] just come home. And I think I'm just I I I have the Torah is called uh Man on [59:31] I have the Torah is called uh Man on Water. Okay. And the reason it's called [59:33] Water. Okay. And the reason it's called man on water is because my whole life [59:36] man on water is because my whole life I've realized that there's obstacles and [59:38] I've realized that there's obstacles and there's a lot of turbulence. Mhm. But if [59:41] there's a lot of turbulence. Mhm. But if I just focus on God, those crazy moments [59:45] I just focus on God, those crazy moments become an awesome time like a like a [59:48] become an awesome time like a like a roller coaster. And you have a lot of [59:50] roller coaster. And you have a lot of joy and peace in the storm. Uh just like [59:53] joy and peace in the storm. Uh just like Peter when he was standing on the water, [59:54] Peter when he was standing on the water, he only sunk when he took his eyes off [59:56] he only sunk when he took his eyes off of God. So I want to go out and perform [59:59] of God. So I want to go out and perform standup. I want to make movies. I want [01:00:02] standup. I want to make movies. I want to create art in all forms. Is this is [01:00:04] to create art in all forms. Is this is this tour like a variety show or is it [01:00:05] this tour like a variety show or is it stand up? So, is it a mix? Yeah. Sweet. [01:00:08] stand up? So, is it a mix? Yeah. Sweet. It's everything coming to the table. And [01:00:11] It's everything coming to the table. And um I think where I'm at right now is I [01:00:14] um I think where I'm at right now is I just got married, so I want to be the [01:00:15] just got married, so I want to be the best that I could possibly be as a [01:00:17] best that I could possibly be as a husband. Mhm. Um, [01:00:20] husband. Mhm. Um, and serve God as best as I can, but [01:00:24] and serve God as best as I can, but organically, not in a cheesy way where I [01:00:27] organically, not in a cheesy way where I like my favorite compliment is when [01:00:28] like my favorite compliment is when people are like, "Bro, I couldn't I [01:00:30] people are like, "Bro, I couldn't I couldn't hear about God until I heard [01:00:32] couldn't hear about God until I heard you speak about God." M that's my [01:00:34] you speak about God." M that's my favorite color because like my again I [01:00:38] favorite color because like my again I don't mean to bring up my mom again but [01:00:40] don't mean to bring up my mom again but I used to bring home all types of kids [01:00:42] I used to bring home all types of kids you know and [01:00:44] you know and there were some kids that I couldn't get [01:00:47] there were some kids that I couldn't get through to the gospel. They would never [01:00:50] through to the gospel. They would never they would shut it down if it was a [01:00:52] they would shut it down if it was a different religion or maybe they just [01:00:54] different religion or maybe they just had a sour taste in their mouth. Mhm. [01:00:56] had a sour taste in their mouth. Mhm. But my mom was always able to crack open [01:01:00] But my mom was always able to crack open that hard heart. you know that that hard [01:01:02] that hard heart. you know that that hard heart. She made it fleshy and she did it [01:01:05] heart. She made it fleshy and she did it by just loving them. Didn't judge them. [01:01:08] by just loving them. Didn't judge them. Just met them where they were at. And so [01:01:11] Just met them where they were at. And so I just want to take everything that God [01:01:12] I just want to take everything that God gave me and these are the tools he's [01:01:15] gave me and these are the tools he's presented in front of me and I know I [01:01:17] presented in front of me and I know I could best wield them when I glorify [01:01:19] could best wield them when I glorify him. Yeah. And so I think this is just [01:01:21] him. Yeah. And so I think this is just the beginning, man. I think I finally [01:01:23] the beginning, man. I think I finally found who I am. I'm a child of God in [01:01:25] found who I am. I'm a child of God in this field. I got one more question for [01:01:28] this field. I got one more question for you. I love that you come from a world [01:01:32] you. I love that you come from a world where going viral, whether that was Vine [01:01:35] where going viral, whether that was Vine or, you know, social media, YouTube, [01:01:39] or, you know, social media, YouTube, where views were [01:01:41] where views were success. Um, you're still in a sense in [01:01:44] success. Um, you're still in a sense in a world [01:01:45] a world where views dictate success, but now you [01:01:49] where views dictate success, but now you are walking out your faith. And I'm just [01:01:52] are walking out your faith. And I'm just curious like for George [01:01:55] curious like for George now, how would you look back on your [01:01:58] now, how would you look back on your life and say I was [01:02:02] successful? I think the true meaning of [01:02:04] successful? I think the true meaning of success is not throwing away your soul [01:02:08] success is not throwing away your soul for the gift that God gave you. [01:02:11] for the gift that God gave you. I think [01:02:12] I think that success is like before I even had [01:02:17] that success is like before I even had the ability to form thoughts, God put [01:02:20] the ability to form thoughts, God put passion and [01:02:21] passion and desires and a beautiful future in front [01:02:24] desires and a beautiful future in front of me. And I could wake up every day [01:02:26] of me. And I could wake up every day fighting it or I could be fighting for [01:02:29] fighting it or I could be fighting for it. And I really believe that money, [01:02:34] it. And I really believe that money, fame, views, this is the best way I [01:02:37] fame, views, this is the best way I could think about it. my one one billion [01:02:40] could think about it. my one one billion views. That's a crazy thing to say. But [01:02:42] views. That's a crazy thing to say. But let's make it a 100red billion. [01:02:44] let's make it a 100red billion. Realistically, in 50 years, no one's [01:02:47] Realistically, in 50 years, no one's going to remember that. And to be [01:02:49] going to remember that. And to be honest, in 10 years, probably nobody [01:02:51] honest, in 10 years, probably nobody remember that. In fact, let's go even a [01:02:53] remember that. In fact, let's go even a step further. There's probably that [01:02:55] step further. There's probably that somebody gets 20 billion views every [01:02:57] somebody gets 20 billion views every year that I don't even know who they [01:02:58] year that I don't even know who they are. [01:03:01] are. How could that be a measure of success? [01:03:03] How could that be a measure of success? They already forgot about it. I already [01:03:05] They already forgot about it. I already forgot about it. M my my wife isn't [01:03:08] forgot about it. M my my wife isn't coming home being like, "Man, I can't [01:03:09] coming home being like, "Man, I can't wait to come home to this 1 billion [01:03:11] wait to come home to this 1 billion view." I [01:03:16] think there was a better [01:03:20] chance. Okay, let me rephrase [01:03:23] chance. Okay, let me rephrase this. Have you ever met anybody and [01:03:26] this. Have you ever met anybody and they're like sad and they're desperate [01:03:29] they're like sad and they're desperate and they're thinking about suicide? [01:03:31] and they're thinking about suicide? Yeah. Yeah. The one thing I tell them [01:03:33] Yeah. Yeah. The one thing I tell them is there is [01:03:36] is there is not like the amount of grain in the sand [01:03:41] not like the amount of grain in the sand on this earth can't compare to how much [01:03:43] on this earth can't compare to how much God loves you. And you don't even know [01:03:47] God loves you. And you don't even know it. I think the meaning of life isn't [01:03:52] it. I think the meaning of life isn't how much you love God. It's the meaning [01:03:56] how much you love God. It's the meaning of life is finding out how much this God [01:03:58] of life is finding out how much this God loves you. [01:04:00] loves you. mic drop. I really do feel that. I feel [01:04:04] mic drop. I really do feel that. I feel like that's just been my journey. I [01:04:07] like that's just been my journey. I Every day I wake up, I think there's two [01:04:09] Every day I wake up, I think there's two men in God's eyes, just two. It's not [01:04:12] men in God's eyes, just two. It's not ethnicity, it's not race, it's not [01:04:14] ethnicity, it's not race, it's not religion, it's two men. One who's [01:04:16] religion, it's two men. One who's grateful and praises the almighty God. [01:04:20] grateful and praises the almighty God. And the other one says, "This just ain't [01:04:22] And the other one says, "This just ain't enough. And I need more. M [01:04:25] enough. And I need more. M I just want to be the guy that looks at [01:04:28] I just want to be the guy that looks at God and says I don't deserve to even be [01:04:31] God and says I don't deserve to even be here having this conversation on your [01:04:32] here having this conversation on your podcast. So when I'm here, I pray that [01:04:35] podcast. So when I'm here, I pray that you know that I'm very grateful for it [01:04:37] you know that I'm very grateful for it and that I pray that every day I wake up [01:04:40] and that I pray that every day I wake up and I open up my eyes that my actions, [01:04:43] and I open up my eyes that my actions, my words, my heart, my mind, and my [01:04:46] my words, my heart, my mind, and my spirit when strangers meet me say, "Ah, [01:04:50] spirit when strangers meet me say, "Ah, a man of God." Mhm. And that's that's [01:04:52] a man of God." Mhm. And that's that's just my dream. I could ask 20 more [01:04:54] just my dream. I could ask 20 more questions off of that alone, but I'm not [01:04:56] questions off of that alone, but I'm not gonna do it today. Bro, thank you, man. [01:04:58] gonna do it today. Bro, thank you, man. Thank you, bro. This is so much fun. [01:05:00] Thank you, bro. This is so much fun. Thank you for having me in your home. [01:05:01] Thank you for having me in your home. Yeah, it just feels good to sit on the [01:05:03] Yeah, it just feels good to sit on the side of the seat, bro. This is dope. [01:05:04] side of the seat, bro. This is dope. Yeah. Thank you, bro. I really [01:05:05] Yeah. Thank you, bro. I really appreciate it. Absolutely. It's hard. [01:05:10] appreciate it. Absolutely. It's hard. This is the deep end with LRAY.